Worst Company in Singapore

Comfort Del*** is a fucked up inefficient company.

I have to wait 2 months just to book the next available test date. and for people who want to cancel their slot, they won't get back any money so in the end they won't cancel their slot.
can't they understand that a lot of of people want to take the stupid test? and i dont understand why we must enrol to take the stupid fucking test. only know how to leech people's money

It's a money-sucking fucking lousy company. All the car companies suck. Make people pay so much yet so inefficient.

Bloody hell.

While you stand in an awkward stance

Life as an IBM Intern

I love my job right now.

I don't know why, but I've never felt so passionate about Technology as before.
My first week itself was really exciting. Within the first 3 days itself, I moved from Changi, to Clarke Quay and to Bugis. On the 2nd day I went for a seminar and the feel was really good, sort of immersive, since I've never been for such work seminars and when you listen to how industry experts talk about the leading technology, you feel bewildered, enchanted and amazed. And since they presented on the new technology that I will be working on for the next 10-12 weeks, it just made me feel excited about starting work. I felt a sort of energy coursing through me and my brain starting thinking of new ideas. It was pretty amazing.

The best deal about working in IBM is the flexibility, partly because I'm in the mobile team. While the fixed work hours are from 9am -6pm, nobody really monitors me strictly. I suppose this is a very smart move from the management's perspective, because this way, we (the employees) are driven more by producing results given a specific dateline. pretty much the same style as school work. I can say this because I used to work in a fixed 8.30am-5pm job before as a temp admin staff and I dreaded work. I dreaded all the tedious pointless and time-consuming data-entry admin work. time passed way too slow and each day I just looked at the clock to strike 5pm. with lots of coffee/toilet breaks in between. But now, while I still go to work from 9am-6pm, I do not feel as restrained, I do not feel as if I'm micro-managed. And when I work, time passes immensely fast. I don't know why, maybe because I'm learning so much at the same time. And thank god, the results delivered is not in the form of exams. While I still feel afraid of not being able to complete the daunting task at hand, I will strive to give my very best.

The funny thing is, I like having fun and enjoying myself. like how I slack in between my studies, but this time, when I work, i barely feel the urge to check my facebook. Of course I still whatsapp when I feel exhausted, but yep, I can see a future headed in this direction. :)

Guess, SMU IS is really a blessing in disguise.

On another note, planning for my education is giving me quite a bit of a headache. I have 19.5 mods left to clear T.T (i thought it was just 18.5). which means the next 2 years will not be easy.

Plus, there's still exchange. I will need to do a lot of research on that. so that the modules I can take are mapped out nicely.

1 more thing I have to say about my University education is that, it really prepares me to be an adult. 2 years ago I came in feeling like a lost child. I had no direction, no knowledge of the big & scary world. but now, I feel a lot more confident. Turning 21 is going to be a big deal in my life.

When shit happens, Life has a way of working things out

Life has its extremely shitty moments. However, I guess, good things come to you too.

The past week has been extremely demoralizing with the release of some results. I don't know why I don't do as well as I had hoped. I mean, i thought I will do alright. but I haven't been lucky with regards to academia the past few years. (4 years to be exact) I just felt very average. And feeling average is terrible, especially when some of your close friends (dean's listers) do insanely well without much effort. This just makes me feel very frustrated and yes, sore. I admit I've been sore about the grade difference between my boyfriend's grades and mine. and trust me, its not because I'm more slack than him, or that he's been more hardworking. I have been working my ass off the past term. Maybe I was just a little slack at the start, but i can assure you that i stay up late at night, i read my materials before and after class,I do weekly revision, and participate rather actively in class (except for the modules where cp does not matter), but I just don't do as well as I hope. While, he can not study EI the past week, not bring in any good notes for the EI exam, and just ace the paper. I got an average score while he got super high. And this really just makes me feel STUPID. there's no other way to explain it. And I just feel so depressed. I mean, if I hadn't been working hard, I'll understand why I don't do well. But the thing is. I have been working hard.

Sigh. I'm just going to pray for the results of my remaining modules. Hopefully I don't get a B-. So far I know I have a B+ for EI. and its damn fucking stupid. I just need 2 more percentage marks to jump 2 subgrades. with a 75.66, I got a B+, but if I get a 77, I'll be able to get an A. this means that the score range for A- is 1 mark. like WTH la. Fucking bell curve.

Okay, now on with the good news,

1. I got shortlisted for an internship interview with NYSE (New York Stock Exchange), :D:D:D my first successful Ontrac internship application.

2. OMG! I got selected for MEXICO internship!!! ahh (the one where 156 other students applied)

This really gave me the much-needed ego boost :D I guess, despite not making it into the dean's list, I still get  selected for internships through my resume/cover letter. which makes me feel good. haha :)

So, I will not give up(even though I feel like it), I will work hard on developing my experiences and succeed :D Maybe, this is the path that I was meant to go on. (my IS degree)

I will not give up.

Summer Summer

Yes, It really feels like summer because the weather is especially hot these few days. This is going to be a really busy summer with Apex & 3 months of internship. and I don't know why my internship is ending on the 3rd Aug. Seems like I really won't have much of a break this summer. I distinctly remember telling the guy that the period is til 16 Jul though.

weird. I'm not used to this new blogger layout. rah.. The box is too wide. not as it the post will come out that wide. (oh, just realized i was using the html mode)  :/

 Meanwhile. I'm quite worried about my relationship with wb. feels a lil rocky. well. not really, but the feeling is different. Hmm. maybe its just cos the honey moon period has passed. How do couples stay together for so long? respect for couples who've been together for more than 2-3 years.

Supporting local talent :)

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Holy Guacamole

I just went for my internship "interview" with my supervisors/colleagues today. It's not an interview since i got my internship already, but it's more like a briefing.

When I first came, I did feel a little bit nervous, but more calm than I normally would be. And what was totally unexpected was that my manager (or leader or supervisor) said: "Let's go to Spinelli's"

So, he asked me what I wanted, and for a moment i felt quite stunned. because who interviews over a cup of coffee right? idk. haha. And I wanted to pay for my drink la. cos its all so expensive! so i reached for my wallet and said: "I'll pay for my own" but he told me, dont worry its okay. So ya. he bought a drink for me. What a unique experience. haha

So, yup. I started by telling him about my experience. It was quite weird actually, cos I had my interview mode on. lol. prepared to answer questions in a professional style. you know? but then he said: its not an interview, dont have to be so formal, so i had to switch my tone. yeah. a bit awkward for me at first >.<

After awhile, the ice broke and yeap, we chatted and then they started telling me about my job role; what they expect from me; and what i can expect from this internship.

and Holy Guacamole. I never imagined. The scale of the project they want me to do is HUGE. So it's beyond the scope of what I've done in class, which is to develop an application for clients etc. And get this. the scope is larger, but the time frame is short. 3 months only. And he told me, what I'll be doing is not just a single role, but I will need to project manage, (maybe come up with the architecture), code out something like a middleware & interact with clients to sell the final product.

I was so stunned. I mean like, wow, they would let an intern do so much? :O

BEST internship ever :D:D:D

I'll definitely learn a lot during this internship and this will probably increase my market value >.< And I have heard many stories about interns doing nothing much, so I'm really really thankful :)

Thought Bank

I should control my appetite for sweet stuff.

today, I was just exploring the web and discovered a lot of interesting things.

1. The story of a boy, Shin, who was born in a prison in North Korea.

2. Conspiracy Theories

-> the London bombings were staged?

-> Noah's ark really exists?

3. Sigmund Freud

-Unconscious mind, libido, pleasure principle, repression. His theories regarding id, ego and super ego awe me. It relates to how we suppress our primal instinct. the super ego correlates to morality

4. Stephan Hawking

-An incredible man who heard that he was only going to have 2-3 years left in 1965, but is still living on, now past 70yrs old. He won many notable scientific awards

5. Pure silence can mess with your mind. http://games.yahoo.com/blogs/unplugged/quietest-place-earth-mutes-sounds-messes-head-212556719.html

Besides all the things I've discovered, here are some other thoughts.

1.I read the book, Hunger Games, it may not be a fantastic read as Harry Potter is, but it brings a lot of real world issues to mind that we cannot dismiss- Starvation, Entertainment, Survival Instinct.

What if I was born into that world? a world without freedom? It is scary to think of such a situation. But when I read the article on the boy who was born in a prison, that thought solidified. There exists a place where people are not treated the way we are, where they do not know of love, where for every new friend made, there is a fear of betrayal. Where the people are not plagued only by hunger, but by torture, both physical and mental. It's scary.

http://www.guardian.co.uk/books/2012/mar/16/escape-north-korea-prison-camp

Click on the link to read the article

:)