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Sad Exchange

2012-02-13T14:28:00.001+08:00

Quietly thinking to myself
Sharing half our mind instead of none
The shakings just begun
The pleasantries are gone,
This sad exchange pleased neither one of us

So we finally gave up
Meanings tend to give out
The Time was gone to act out
this living torture, living torture

No talking When I want you to Listen
No talking cos it's Living torture, Living torture

A song with so much emotion

Our first Valentine :)

2012-02-12T22:11:00.008+08:00

Date: Thursday 9th Feb (a great day :D )

Giant Heart of Post-Its in the shape of a heart (done by SISS):

and I wrote right smack in the center :p

Cute right! hehe

The photo I submitted for the competition (to win a pair of movie tickets). Managed to get about 100 likes. but nah, we won't win

Dinnering at Octapus by the riverside at Clarke Quay! (total bill was about $65, but the ambience was good, plus there was music! hehe)

This costs $40 (not incl GST) but it's for 2 pple la

This is the shop's logo!

The watch I gave him! Burnt a hole in my pocket but I hope he likes it!

The Sailing ship or the drifting sail

2012-02-10T12:56:00.002+08:00

It's queer. I can pen out my thoughts so quickly and easily when it comes to blogging. But when I'm told to write an assignment about a reflection. I'm stumped.

You see. reflections are meant to be an extension of one's thoughts about life and about the things that matter. They're not meant to be graded.

So I have a few ideas on how I should write my reflection. But when i face that word document, I put in a lot of extra thought that I don't know how to begin. I have the thoughts but it doesn't flow out because I am concerned whether what I wrote sounds good.

Simplicity is the Ultimate Sophistication

2012-02-10T00:38:00.002+08:00

So excited!

Can't wait can't wait can't wait!

My sister said that he has cast a love spell on me.

What kind of 'sorcery' is able to make me do this?

But, well it is our first Valentine's day together afterall. and it is his first ever.

So, it has to be somewhat more special. hahah

Although I really liked the more complicated details.

I guess simplicity is the ultimate sophistication :)

I'd be a Prick if i don't post about my awesome 2012 CNY

2012-01-25T03:11:00.007+08:00

On that note,

I don't really know what a prick is. lol

But this CNY was pure awesomeness :D

Different from last year, because we couldn't visit uncle david's house at night (the usual dinner place) cos he's feeling under the weather.

On the other hand, I went clubbing! :D

heh, its really been awhile mans

Did a few crazy(for me) stuff, but what happens in Zouk, stays in Zouk :D

lol

It starts off with the super yummy reunion dinner. At the red house again, but I'm not complaining cos i get to eat sharksfin soup, abalone and other awesome chinese food. There was so much food, we couldnt even finish the plate of prawns & abalone on our table. But that's the prob you see, my family was segregated into 2 different tables, one with the grandma, her kids and my bro. and another little male cousin. While on the other table sat us, meaning the maids, the little female kids plus another boy, my sister and I.

sucks right. Males are totally favoured over females.

Anyway, this is the look i wore for the reunion dinner, too bad i didn't manage to get a full body shot, maybe my dad has it.

On that night [We had a super early reunion dinner, it started at like 5pm?]

We went home to chill first then went over to Anton's place to watch Modern Family!

Haha, some of them played Mahjong & some other watched soccer with Man City & Arsenal i think. ---> totally not a soccer fan

So, Modern Family is really quite funny! I only watched like season 2 last few episodes

I still prefer Friends & How I met your mother.

We went home super late! or early I'd say, like 5am?

Haha

CHINESE NEW YEAR DAY 1

So CNY started off with the first house at Mama's place! :D

And then we went to Sam Yee Po's place
for her super yummy prawn mee! It's what we ALWAYS look forward to at her place every year :)

The place got super crowded at one point in time that we had to squeeze through =X

3rd Stop: Grand-auntie Chu's place! [My mum's side]

My Mum's sisters give us super big ang pow la! i think cos we're the only kids they give to every year. lol, Cos my mum's the youngest and her oldest sister is like 12 years apart! and her son is married with a family in UK

My mum's 2nd oldest sister's daughter (my cousin who is prob more than 10 yrs older than us) will be marrying this year (a wedding I can't go because I'll be having exams D: ) in Australia! i wanna go mans :(

4th Stop: My Aunty Mary's place! (I think she forgot to gave us an ang pow =X ) hahaha

I haven't even had the chance to play Mahjong yet! D:

Ugh. super tired. I'm gg stop here,

If i dont blog, here's a quick update: went zouk for $60, and on day 2, went to Teng's place for CNY dinner (super fun, we played Ban Luck, Cheers Governor & joked etc, & the bass is damn power!)

);

2012-01-22T21:50:00.002+08:00

It's sad how you're my everything

but I'm below your everything

FFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUU

2012-01-22T21:08:00.002+08:00

CRAPPPP

I didn't manage to submit a complete MC assignment. D:

You know what happened?

Yesterday I wanted to clear that online assigment, but halfway through it, it was loading super slowly,

until the error page showed that the site was down for maintenance (Prof did mention it before, but i totally forgot about it :( I was more concerned about clearing my assignments before the new year)

arghhhhh

So i went back to the website to check this morning & found that the status was "In Progress", meaning i could still complete the assignment,

So my heart was at ease and i prepared for my early reunion dinner thinking that i could complete it after the dinner.

But now that I'm back from the dinner, I could still click on the assignment but it said that my session timed out! ARGHHHHHHH

SO there were a lot of questions that I haven't completed :(

SUPER SAD NOWWWW

DIEEEEEE D:D:D:D:

And i cried.

Can't believe I cried over this :(

But im super upset

Sorry Babydoll

2012-01-20T02:16:00.001+08:00

Today, I understand myself a little better.

2012-01-20T01:23:00.002+08:00

I took a personality quiz & found that I'm a ENTJ type of person (based on Jung's personality test)

What is ENTJ?

Extraverted	Intuitive	Thinking	Judging
Strength of the preferences %
44	25	25	22

What is ENTJ?

http://www.personalitypage.com/html/ENTJ_rel.html

Check out this website if you're interested in what it means. And i find it quite through, except for the lack of mention of the academic & career prospect.

The one that i find the most relational is the one on my horoscope, GEMINI :D it's so true

Anyways,

sometimes i come across some things which strikes me. Like the Harvard Commencement speech given by J.K Rowling.

And, some other stuff which i will not mention.

It makes me think about a lot of things, about life after graduation, but that topic will come in another day.

To end off, he finally agreed to let me post pictures of us! haha not that he didn't allow it before, but yeah, he doesn't really like it.

Here are some of my favourites! <3

Caught you peeping!

2012-01-16T14:19:00.002+08:00

Haha, i quite like this one :p

A Vulnerable Wall

2012-01-15T00:15:00.004+08:00

We tread carefully, right from the start

unsure of the beaten path that so many have fallen into

We take precautions, setting a clear boundary

on what we keep personal and on what we can flaunt

We protect that fragility, adding layer upon layer

Until a fort so impenetrable has been formed

And that wall

It defies its primary objective

Blocking everything out

Til we become numb

We say we've become stronger

But that wall is more vulnerable than you think

A tiny crevice

A narrow fissure

And the core which we've painstakingly tried to protect

RUPTURES

. . .

This may sound cliched

2012-01-10T20:28:00.005+08:00

But It's a brand new start :)

I've been keeping to my action plan of reading and preparing before class, I will study after class and I will keep to seeing my boyfriend once a week + 1 lunch. (although i steal moments with him, like in between his classes today ^,^)

And today was a good day, I bumped into Darryl, Marvin, Nick & Wei Ji (but he disappeared) at Booklink and after that decided to have some lunch together. It was fun, chatting with them about growing older, with older mannerisms (they bought hot kopi & tea. lol) and about 21st birthday parties! :D Don't know what's the plan yet, but maybe I'll have 2! >.< hahah

Tried Styling my hair! Maybe I'll perm it someday =3

A Meaningful Quote:

“We act as though comfort and luxury were the chief requirements of life, when all that we need to make us happy is something to be enthusiastic about.” ~ Albert Einstein

Some quote I came up with:

Literature: the delicately-crafted permutation of words which spurs the imagination and provokes thought

Other thoughts:

What does success mean? How do we measure whether we're successful? I've always wanted to be successful, but i realized the vagueness of the term. Then, when can i really know that I've attained success?

Another thought:

What are memes? and where did it pop up from? 9gag.com? And why do some friends start following certain slangs like "Y U ..." I find it quite annoying. =/

Broken English is annoying.

and yet, I'm not fully aware of how good or broken my english is.

Sometimes I write, and i think to myself, does this sound correct? it may sound correct to me, but is it universally correct?

The English language is tough, but i want to master it!

and yep, I've been reading quite a lot since last Sunday. I read like 3 readers' digests (okay, it's not really a lot since i skip the boring inspirational and kindness stories) but i've started reading a novel! Maybe I should pen down my dreams someday, because they're amazing.

When I am lucid dreaming, I feel as if I've been transported to another dimension.

In 1 of my more recent dreams, I dreamt about a friend (someone i hardly interact with) and the weird thing was that I flirted with him and we went on a sort of adventure (with underground portals and an upscaled version of bras basah complex)

Okay, i was thinking of some other stuff but I forgot about it. =/ maybe it'll come back again soon. lol been thinking about too much random stuff recently, It's time to stop thinking & to start doing!

Rawr! Back to work!

My Resolve

2012-01-08T03:27:00.002+08:00

I said I wouldn't write New Year Resolutions,

But I've come up with a Resolve. And that Resolve is to NEVER GIVE UP.

I am going to forget the disappointment I faced the previous semester and take it as if I didn't study hard enough. This semester, I will focus on my studies and do well. My goal: to achieve a cumulative score of at least 3.4 by the time I graduate and to do that, I need to score at least 4.25 in the upcoming semester =X Gosh. That's like an impossible goal. Haiss

Okay, to think more realistically, I'll hope to get a score of 3.7 for the next semester, meaning an average of A- for all my subjects.

Action Plan:

1. Read up before lesson

2. Study after lesson

3. Revise the next day and the week after

4. Waste less time

5. Meet him less (Once a week + 1 lunch)

6. Stay FOCUSED and stick to the plan

7. Keep myself healthy & organize my time properly!

Christmas and Desserts

2012-01-02T02:29:00.005+08:00

Some of my favourite christmas photos!

Anton, Anne-Marie, Sarah, Me & Bro!

Yummy desserts from Gastronomia by Da Paolo :d

Tiramisu from Wan Swen! (Her Christmas Present to us)
Cute koala bear at Jo's place!
Post-Christmas Shopping with wb!

Window-shopping with him is really quite fun. He's really into those formal shoes now. and yeah, I didn't buy anything at all (except food) due to mega huge budget constraints :(

Been spending way too much money today

Yummy chinese desserts with Wee Long, Baoyun, Adrian, Gabriel and Wen Bin after a day of poker and Famous Fish Soup dinner (Adrian & I Shared fried rice.. he really eats damn little for a guy) :D

Christmas Spoils

Victoria's Secret Complete Make-Up kit!

coolest present I received from my godma

Oops (forgot to rotate it)

Other stuff include a Folli Follie pendant, a nice pink waterbottle, with the perfect spout, a Beret made in France, a metal belt, and an angpow from mama

New Year's Eve

2012-01-01T18:13:00.005+08:00

2011 was such a great year, well, maybe not that great but yeah, it's quite good to the extent that i feel kinda pessimistic about the new year

Kay, I'll first start off with my new year celebration..

The day was really fun, hanging out with starring friends, playing the games at playnation and dancing like nobody was watching. it was really fun.

we went to camwhore after that! :D

Dinner with them was great too. although the food from the atas restaurant Riciotti, sucks. well. maybe i just ordered the wrong meal: Salmone, salmon sandwich with huge chunks of goat cheese and cut onions. the salmon part was good. i mean hey you can't really go wrong with smoked salmon. but the total combination just sucks. the strong zangy taste from the onions overwhelmed everything, and the cheese was too thick, couldnt taste the salmon at all. and the bread tasted a bit tough. bleagh.

total waste of my $16. it looks good though

and my friend bought this pasta, quite nice, but i tried it cold though

But the company was the best, heh. they managed to squeeze out my boyfriend's name out of me. and said that both I & another girl, Jane, are super sneaky! cos we've kept everyone in the dark that we've been attached for 5-6mths. whahah super stealth mode. lol

After that, i met up with wb, and we sorta got into a quarrel. yeah. sucks to do so on New Year's Eve.. Zzz

but he drove us both to Spencer's place, to watch the countdown.

It was pretty ok, not as lively and happening as I had been hoping my New Year countdown to be. yeah i had huge expectations.. maybe that's why i felt a little disappointed,

Gosh, i feel so depressed now. dont know why.

2012 will be a year of high expectations and even bigger disappointments.

I don't know how my sourcing of internships will go

I don't know how I'll fare in the upcoming courses

In addition to that, I'm going to be so lonely for the next term, bleahs. everyone forming their own teams without me.

Maybe the world will really come to an end.

That wouldn't be so bad hey?

I'd just obliterate, along with all the disappointments and failures and things that makes life difficult

Everyone all has New Year Resolutions, I don't even want to think about mine, cos those stupid New Year resolutions never fall through. I have given up already.

Every year, i keep wanting to lose weight. But every year, I'm still the same weight. like a fat piece of lard.

I know people tell me how to try, to just be determined enough, but somehow I just don't find it in me to be determined enough. Cos i still like to eat desserts and sinful stuff. Rawr.

D: sucks to be me sometimes.

LIke, why am i such a lazy and unmotivated prick?

okay, maybe i did work harder the previous semester, and yeah, my grades did improve, but I didn't get the grades I expected to get. I mean, i thought I'd do well for stats, but that fucking midyear paper just threw me away. and, I'd thought I'd do well for PMSB.

Maybe I'm just not cut out for studies.

Maybe I'm just not cut out for anything.

Today.. i was chatting with a friend, we talked about schools and futures and stuffs. then, he asked me a question: "But what do you like doing?"

And i pondered over that question for a really long time.

And it struck me, I really don't know.

In my entire life, I've just been "going with the flow" and "going wherever life takes me" I don't know whether that's a good mantra to follow, but yeah. I've been drawn and dragged into the standard major obtacles of PSLE, O Level, A Level and now University. I've been constantly mindfucked that all that matters are grade grades and great grades. And now, I really don't know what i like doing. I mean, almost all my life I've been studying, but is that what i really like doing? I don't think so. I hated it. (well, not that bad, but yeah, i hate the pressures and the disappointments)

and now i think, what is the point of all that anyway? we're all going to die in the end anyway.

But yeah, I always tell myself to be optimistic and think: Its not the end that matters, it's the journey. So now, I'm on a journey. of my life. and I'm lost. i feel like i'm suffering some mid-life crisis here.

Ah well, enough of the emo post. here are some cute pictures:

Sock monkey! :D
Medium Sized domo-kun! I got it as a christmas present from wb :)

[Now i have 3 sizes of domo, lol] will take a pic for comparison next time

Macau (Zhu Hai) Day 1

2011-12-23T18:01:00.001+08:00

man. had such an awesome first

day! although the first part of the day was extremely long, but i'll get to that part later...

So the day started off with breakfast with big guy! ^^ I ate my fave mcgriddles! :D om nom

nom :p

hehe. aft that we just hanged around until my parents came.

And now, on to why the first part of the day was so long, queueing to get past the china customs was soo long! plus we're all damn shagged from the 3hr flight alr.

aft that, thank god the travelling arnd doesnt take that long.

all china trips got the standard tourist traps. we went to the silk shop & went through the same tour that we've been through b4. damn sian i tell you. but andre bought his silk stuff

the next stop was the strawberry farm, it was damn awesome la!

we get to pick as many strawberries

as we can eat (but not bring back) and we picked all the super small but damn yummy ones! even yummier than the big & expensive ones at cold storage. cos its super sweet & ripe! :D happy happy!

hehe. and being in China again totally reminds me of the days in Kashgar la! all the memories :D

at night we went to shop at the lovers street. but most of the things they sold were jackets & warm winter clothing.. nt v. wearable in sg. so i didn't buy anything. i joined the guys after awhile & ate some shao kao (bbq road side food. damn yummy la!! got the shoik shoik feeling ^^)

aft that, when we retreated to the hotel. its like OMG jizz in my pants awesome! :D will upload pics later. its rly big & comfy and wa. u'll feel so pampered.

the room has a rotating tv with a sofa on 1 side & the beds on the other. it has a super awesome wardrobe that sort of links to the toilet (so u can actually have access to the toilet even tho you lock the toilet door. and the showering area is separated by a transparent glass!

okay, enough abt the room. at night, we took a walk to eat supper! omg im gg grow fat! :(

but the food was super awesome :D

Not my usual weekend ^^

2011-12-18T22:34:00.004+08:00

OMG yet another rather epic weekend! hehe.

i'm such a lucky girl. and

everyday i give thanks for that :)

on sat i met up with Thirants! well, at least half or it anw, Teng hui, edwin, Mayer, Winston, Sinchi & I went ice-skating at kallang! :D it was super scary at first. i fell on my front twice! heng got boobs to cushion my fall. lol

& i regret wearing a jacket! u know why? even though its cold at the start, aft skating for awhile, u'll start sweating! :x

so after trying out a few more

times, and aft telling myself to face my fears, i cld skate faster, but still cldnt do stunts i did in the past.. sadly :(

aft that, we went to try some typhoon bubble tea, i tried almond milktea! yum yum :d and the good news is, the almond taste is nice & strong :D not like the lousy kind.

and yea. drinking bubble tea at the table is awesome, cos u get

to chat with friends at the same time. and chatting is really fun! we talked about stuffs like gore and horror movies & abt edwin's pilot experience. cool stuff.

but most of them had to leave arnd 6plus, so just edwin, mayer & i were left. but its still not bad, we took a walk to the bridge & enjoyed the scenary :)

aft tt, i went to shop for new shoes! cos 1. my boots spoilt on that day, e entire sole came off! and 2. i wanted to buy dr.martens 3. fashion for macau! lol.

the sad news was, the dr. martens shop at marina square closed down! :( and i just wanted to look for a pair of flat boots. but in e end bot sth more practical, + its nice too! ^^

and heng i told anton i was free. and so at first i wasnt supposed to be part of his dinner plans, but he decided to invite me! ^^ i was gg to his hse later at night anw.

we went to gyu kaku. i bought the 2nd cheapest item on the menu and its friggin small!! it said there was mince meat but i didnt find any! i felt a little cheated. :(

its damn small i tell u. and its $8.90 ++

guess how much the total bill amounted to? $120 bucks! cos anton ordered the wagyu beef, the dinner was supposed to be mel's bday present.

at night we met up with sarah, anne and her friends & chilled ^^

today, i went to watch sherlock holmes! with my awesome se team ^^ we havent got our prize money yet though! >=[

whahaz and we were supposed to go bowling, but in e end we ate ice cream! its super awesome! we shared a big tub ($18) and tried 3 diff flavours: durian (the guys wanted it), chocolate (heavenly!) and nougat, damn nice! :D

happy happy! ^^

now at airport waitin for him! can't wait anymoreeee!!

P.S will upload pics when i'm back. gg to macau for 5 days with cousins! whee~

Why Monopolies suck, from a Singaporean consumer perspective

2011-12-14T22:27:00.003+08:00

Rawrr! I have so much to complain about today, in particular, the monopolies that extended their wrath upon us!

Today, actually yesterday, I went to the CDC (for driving) center to find out more about how to start learning driving. And boy, the no. of people in the queue was so many!

So ytd, we decided to come back again today after going home to try & log in with my old account.

I realised that my membership had expired, so I had to go back to the center.

I thought they would kindly renew my membership, but guess what, they charged the same amount all over again ($90.95). Those bitches.

And the worst thing is, they only accept NETS or cashcard (or credit)

But i left my NETs card in the car (accidentally D:)

so i had to pay by cash.

Okay, thankfully i had enough cash. but that bitch who served me was a total bitch. her attitude and service sucks.

And when i told her i could only pay by cash, she wouldn't return me the change, freaking bitch. spoil my day. thankfully the money can be claimed back once I complete the course.

So yeah, I had to pay double the amount just because their 'membership' expires in 6 months. what great service.

And its so costly too.

I was left with 11 bucks by the time I left the place. (Thank God that cash was put to great use later on , to get coffee & cake)

So yeah. stupid monopolies cheat us of our money.

Rawr!

Coffee and Cake

2011-12-14T22:07:00.002+08:00

Ahh, one of the best ways to enjoy life,

sipping a cup of bittersweet roasted-to-perfection Arabica coffee beans added with a hint of irish cream; nibbling on the soft, slightly over-baked cheesecake (which gave a very unique texture) mixed with Bailey's liqueur and hardened chocolate drizzles felt really divine.

In addition to that, the cozy ambience, the perfect company and that carefree mindset really made my evening splendid.

Yesterday, Olivia asked us out for Tea, Wan Swen gave a suggestion and I had free time after my meeting. Thus, we made the decision to hang out today to enjoy what freedom we had now. Not a single bit of that freedom was wasted.

Today, I talked like I haven't talked in ages, excitement coursed through my veins as we talked about the littlest things, about what we've seen on the internet, about coffee, and food,and friends and our hobbies and the ambiguous future that held for us.

For once in a long while, I did not feel bounded by academia, by the endless pursuit of grades (although we spent a few moments panicking about the grades release on Friday) and by the list of things I had to do.

Sometimes, moments like these may only last a while, but the memories of it will definitely last forever. :)

Can't connect,I feel so disconnected

2011-12-14T21:50:00.001+08:00

I'm gg shower first before i blog about some eggciting things!

oh dear internet connection, please don't die out on me.

You've been such a bitch.

Why I Love Family Day :D

2011-12-12T00:11:00.002+08:00

Hehe. checked out the new mall I12 at Katong today! and when i stepped it, it didn't feel like katong, at all. cos previously, almost all the malls in katong are quite deserted, that place used to be Katong Mall! a place that ppl hardly visited, but today it was so crowded! and they have a lot of new shops that i've not seen in other places too.

new shopping place! (Y) plus there'll be a movie theatre!

the east rocks!

okay next thing, we had a shabu shabu buffet for lunch! at $11.20 per person only! :D

Then aft that we headed over to town. OMG. Orchard was so frikkin crowded!

seriously. but got the festive mood feeling la.

we went to H&M to buy some clothes (sponsored by mummy ^^)

Shopping with my parents is like the best ppl to shop with la, they pay for ur purchases, queue for you and hold your shopping bag.

I admit, I'm such a spoilt kid, haha but things like this happen only once in a blue moon

oh man. my english is getting a bit rusty.. i need to write more! & i plan to read a few books this holiday season. + i must start learning how to drive! but gosh i keep procrastinating D:

and i need my big guy. rawr! he's on holiday now, missing him so much :(

& i just found out that my family will be checking in at 4am on 19th! sian. that means i rly cant spend much time with him, cos he'll only be back on the 18th at night. sianzxz

okay, back to shopping stuff, i bought a really nice velvety jacket! @$39.90! :D plus a woolly cap & knee high socks! rly quite excited about gg to macau!! :D hehe

i also bought a pair of jeans from uniqlo! cos they have offer! :D:D:D:D:D

yay!

lol.

shopping makes me happy, besides coffee & him :p

Some things to be happy about!

2011-11-26T19:35:00.002+08:00

KYAAAA!!

This is such a great week! it feels like things are finally going my way :D

First of all, my Software Engineering team (one of the modules I'm taking in Yr 2 in SIS) was 1 of the 6 teams nominated for the Credit Suisse-SMU Software Engineering Stars Awards! So we're like considered the top 6 teams out of ~50 teams in the whole cohort? :D

Feels damn good to have an achievement sia.

Haha, next thing is, 65% of my TWC grades are out! but its only the raw score & may be subjected to change (pls dont drop me!) >.<

but it really feels good to see some As on the report card at least. I've still got a 35% exam to clear. I must score to get A+!!

Whahah. okok.

next thing, I've been sleeping the whole day! OMG I'm such a pigggg xD

kk. gg shower liao & chiong! then maybe catch a midnight movie with big guy ><

That's not how it's supposed to be, right?

2011-10-19T13:59:00.001+08:00

Inundated by solitude...

What makes us fall will only make us stronger.

2011-10-16T14:28:00.002+08:00

I feel like such an epic FAILURE. I mean, I did put in effort, i studied, i felt prepared. I'm talking about the same thing that made me really sad 2 weeks ago. That damn midterm paper.

The results are finally out, & I've been trying to get it out of my mind,but the reality of the results is unavoidable. i did terribly. That's it. 1 module down. It feels terrible. I feel like an unworthy piece of garbage. Like I'm stupid. Like I've got no more future. Seriously. I started imagining my future as a pathetic & useless housewife (not that housewives are pathetic, but its my definition of failure in the career prospects).

I'm seriously worried about my future. About how the number of internships i qualify for just gets narrower and narrower. About how bleak my future looks.

It is terrible.

But then, my hero was really sweet, he accompanied me & comforted me, he told me about a true story of a guy (who will not be named) who failed the same exam & got the lowest in the class. He scored full marks in the final exam & got an A+, and now he's also in the Dean's list. Well, that gave me hope. really.

And then i watched this video: http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=2043263928080

Gosh, my tears really streamed out in torrents.

That video makes everything that i worry about seem so pathetic.

Now, I gotta put in double the effort & start working extra extra hard!!!

When i get bored =3

2011-10-12T01:22:00.005+08:00

Ruin - The painful truth

2011-10-07T19:21:00.001+08:00

Sinking in the deep melancholy of withheld urges from the deprivation of teenage angst and ruin.

I delved into the deep recesses of that burning predilection for destitution and havoc.

Yet, I am crippled by the exigency to be, in all essence of the word, Good.

Another Love Song :)

2011-10-02T17:50:00.004+08:00

Such a sweet song <3 i nearly teared the first time i heard it!

Another thing,
my blog had a sudden spike in the no. of views ytd night! i think i know why =X hahaha Its super funny though. lol. his reaction. >.<

You know, yesterday was such a sad day. had midterms & all that made me soo depressed! D: to the extent that i teared on the bus ride home :/

But yeah. i need to pick myself up again. Can't afford to let this 1 setback pull me down. though, it been awhile since i felt this immense sadness as a result of my exams/grades.
But rly, ytd I had no appetite to eat anything at all. So i watched "500 days of Summer" it was e 2nd time i watched it & i still love it :D its not like a typical romance movie, but i like the way they told the story. and Zooey Deschanel is soo gorgeous!

My favourite scene is the part where they show parallel views of expectations vs reality.

and yea. about how reality almost always lets our expectations down. That no matter how well-prepared we are to face certain things, (for example exams), the truthis that reality may not match our expectations, and because of that, we get disappointed about so many things in life. Sometimes, i feel that happiness can be achieved when we don't have such high expectations of ourselves, of the things that we plan for. But in that event, wouldn't it be equivalent to saying that we shouldn't dare to dream big?

I don't know. The extreme sadness i felt yesterday was not merely because i didn't perform as expected during the exam, it was because i had put in a lot of effort into my preparation for the papers. to the extent that i broke down on wed. I put all this pressure on myself and to what benefit? And being around other guys who think they're smarter than you makes it a lot harder to bear. Its like, they look down you simply because you're born with a vagina instead of a penis.

It really sucks. And that's also why i want to work extra hard to do well this semester. And you think its all about the grades. but there's more to it than that. Its about proving that you're smart. It increases your desirableness to potential final year project teammates, meaning, if you've got a high GPA, more people will want you in their team and people will think differently of you. Not only that, once you begin the 2nd year of university, you realize that people who do well get a lot more opportunities, like they get offered a scholarships/job offers/ more networking sessions etc.

It's a very competitive environment.

Gosh. how did my happy song turn into an emo blog post? lol

On a happier note, i had chocolate waffles + coffee with Jaryll & Chang Boon today! :D so yummy :d and guess what, it only costs $2!! its like the frikkin cheap for 7-eleven.

To add on, the waffle on its own just costs $1. and the cup of coffee is pretty big, but we just paid $1 more for it. Damn awesome right? haha. when you discover something awesome, there is always good reason to celebrate :D

Okay. Bye. :)

Classical Remixes are Love

2011-09-30T01:56:00.001+08:00

Mcgriddles

2011-09-20T12:18:00.003+08:00

Had McGriddles for breakfast with him! <3 Om Nom Nom d:

But ytd was a really long day. yeah, sort of the worst, but not in e bad sense. u know?

but anyhoo. MCGRIDDLES! :D ahh

the fats! feeling so guilty now :X

SE!

2011-09-17T02:24:00.003+08:00

Haven't been blogging in a while, i've been so busy with school work! esp SE (Software Engineering) I feel quite heng though, I've such an AWESOME group, with awesome groupmates like: Chun Tat (the JAVA GOD :P) Jaryll TJIOE: the handsome Indonesian who's super all-rounded and our grp's PM, Adrian: the SUPER CUTE guy who sneezes like a girl & whose whole face turns super red when he blushes & who keeps saying: "CHICKEN MCNUGGETS" :P and there's ALVIN who is really awesome at designing stuff using css/flash/photoshop etc etc (he's rly good) and there's ME! AWESOME DOCUMENT MANAGER. LOL!

haha, I really feel super lucky. & I wanna thank the real GOD for granting me such luck :D

hehe.

I WANT TO GET INTO THE DEAN'S LIST THIS SEM! I'M SUPER MOTIVATED & BELIEVE I CAN DO IT. :D

Perfect Two ~Auburn

2011-09-03T23:38:00.000+08:00

Love this song. the lyrics says it all <3

Things that make me happy

2011-08-30T11:17:00.002+08:00

My new coach wallet! I love it a lot a lot! :D heh and the way he got it was the sweetest way ever. I've seriously fallen for this guy. and its not because of the things he does for me. It's everything about him <3

Two cute tortoises! :DFamily & Cousins! <3 They will always be there for me :)

An old polaroid photo that Sarah hid! >:[ k la. i know she didnt hide it intentionally, but ya. i thought i lost it :x

eeks! I'm so fat :( need to lose weight BIG TIME

Soaking up the lights at the Night Festival

2011-08-28T22:48:00.006+08:00

The past weekend was awesome! :D (26-27 Aug 2011) i went out with some friends to see the night festival located around SMU (like the whole area surrounding SMU & National Museum of Sg.

It started when i managed to complete my SE work (so i was ready to chill! heh :p) on Friday 26 aug 2011. Regine & i met up with Rosanne & Jian Zhang at the Rlab. we took a pic! heh. its quite funny cos i wanted to self-time the pics, but ya. they were all laughing at me cos i cld have just asked Darren who was there to help take the pic.

So, after that, we walked over to SOE to meet up with Wei Ji (the organizer of the dinner) we were supposed to celeb 3 ppl's bday but ya. in the end, he was the only one who turned up. the rest all pangsehed. Haiyo. i didnt feel like going initially, but it was not bad la ^^

We went to Cafe Cartel at Ps to eat RIBS! and Kiang Gei met us there. but aiee. the standard of the ribs dropped :( its quite tough and not so nice :(

After dinner, we went to get Gongcha! luckily the shop at the Cathay was still open, cos the one at PS was alr closed.

After that, we went to catch the Night Festival (finally get to see some actual performance! cos previously all we saw were rehearsals)

It's rly quite cool cos you can see that the scale of the event is really huge. + there were so many pretty lights! and yea. u cld tell that the budget was huge too. (seeing from the props used and the infrastructure installed: CRANES!) there were people hanging from the cranes man. Plus, all the lights and fireworks were spectacular. the only prob was that they were singing in a language i cldnt understand :(

After the festival, i met up him & went to Fort Canning Park ^^

1st Week of sch

2011-08-22T16:03:00.003+08:00

the first week of sch was rly quite slack.
it started with a birthday celebration of an idiot who kept changing his bday on fb. yea. the actual birthday finally came.
the birthday started with a seafood dinner (its super yummy! we had really nice beef + fried rice & 3 different types of crab: chilli crab, black pepper crab & salted egg crab. yum :d
Thereafter, there's the traditional cutting of the birthday cake and singing of the birthday song.

16Aug2011(The birthday boy's actual birthday) + GLOW 2011 - Party like a rockstar
yup. the SIS freshman bash.
I'd say the event was rly well organized by Regine. hats off to her. :)
other than that, the night for us org comm was quite boring, cos we had to stand around and do our work (i had to usher the pageant contestants) and it was so freaking cold! like super cold. so halfway through, i rly just couldnt stand the cold alr & went to borrow Yao Guang's blazer. but yea. i still felt cold :X

But i'd say, that night was pretty EPIC.
heh, since it was Wen Bin's birthday, everyone was out to get him drunk. and in e end, i didn't drink enough, not enough to dare go up to the pole to dance (but dared to after a few more drinks towards the end)I chatted a little with Jo, JEnzus & Yao Guang throughout the night

So, after dancing on the dance floor for awhile, i went out to find the rest of the guys and saw Wen Bin like totally gone on the ground. so yea, we relaxed for awhile before all of us started to go back to sch to slp (cos we've got PMSB lesson at 8.30am in the morn)

Wed 17Aug 2011 :Offically the 1st day of sch for me
on this day, Regine & I managed to wake up at 7.30, saving enough time to go shower at SOE. we didnt have enough time to buy breakfast though :/
after PMSB lesson, the whole gang went to eat lunch at Kopitiam while i waited to go & have my weekly (first of the series) lunch with my sec 2 besties :D (but too bad Jo had a meeting & cldnt make it) so it was just Olivia & Wan Swen. we went to Bras Basah and I ate wanton mee(tastes okok only la, a bit too dry). but aft that, we chatted a bit & yea. I said more than i shldnt have :X
oh wells. they're my sec 2 besties, can't hide everything from them forever :p
At 3.00pm, Olivia departed & Wan Swen & I went for our first TWC lesson. which ended early! :D we met Jo there & yea, Jo had a lot of goodies for us to share: dried mango & Sticky Banana Candy (this is super yummy i tell u)
as i've mentioned, lesson ended early, yay!
so Jo & I took a bus ride home (i've come to appreciate a bus buddy like her even more now since many of my friends all stay super far) Sadly, i'm the only one living in the east :(

Thurs 18 Aug
Had SE lesson! :D the lessons by Chris Boesch are not bad. esp since he's an ang moh, from Texas, his accent is pretty easy to listen to. and yea.
after lesson ended, we formed out project groupings. I tell u ah. i think im pretty lucky! cos i know everyone in my grp: Jaryll, Adrian, Alvin & Chun tat ^^
After lesson, we went to waterloo street to have lunch. we took a break aft that, went to Rlab (i slept)
and at 3.30pm, i went for the Actuarial science as a 2nd major talk. aft that, I went out with him. we talked for many hrs (but i wont go into the details ^^)

Fri 19 Aug
Stats lesson at 1200! u know, i saw that the usual price of a stats textbook is >$50, and i clicked buy for a few of the books above $50
but when i checked bookinbookout in the morn, i managed to find a seller selling at $35! how lucky! so i clicked buy immediately. and guess what? the seller was fast enough to reply me asap! so yea. i did the exchange just before stats lesson started (but in the end nvr use the book :/)
and i brought the GC along too! but a lot of other things (my bag was super heavy!)

The weekend
was pretty chillax, i spent most of my time sleeping & spent a little time studying.

Today
is Monday & marks the start of the 2nd week of sch! I had my first SE lunch + meeting (it was really productive! :D yay) and yea. i think i've got rly good team mates ^^

I'm so lucky!

Glad You Came -The Wanted

2011-08-10T00:24:00.002+08:00

The sun goes down
The stars comes out
And all that counts
Is here and now
My universe
Will never be the same
I'm glad you came

You've cast a spell on me, spell on me
You hit me like the sky fell on my, fell on me
And I've decided you look well on me, well on me
So let's go somewhere no one else can see, you and me

Turn the lights out now
Now I'll take you by the hand
Hand you another drink
Drink it if you can
Can you spend a little time?
Time is slipping away
Away from us so stay
Stay with me, I can make
Make you glad you came

The sun goes down
The stars come out
And all that counts
Is here and now
My universe
Will never be the same
I'm glad you came x2

You've cast a spell on me, spell on me
You hit me like the sky fell on my, fell on me
And I've decided you look well on me, well on me
So let's go somewhere no one else can see, you and me

Turn the lights out now
Now I'll take you by the hand
Hand you another drink
Drink it if you can
Can you spend a little time?
Time is slipping away
Away from us so stay
Stay with me, I can make
Make you glad you came

The sun goes down
The stars come out
And all that counts
Is here and now
My universe
Will never be the same
I'm glad you came x2

I'm glad you came
So glad you came
I'm glad you came x2

The sun goes down
The stars come out
And all that counts
Is here and now
My universe
Will never be the same
I'm glad you came x2

Listen to these songs!

2011-08-09T22:09:00.002+08:00

Wee Kiat's 22nd

2011-08-09T21:30:00.003+08:00

on Wee Kiat's 22nd bday (8 Aug) i was sick, so i spent most of the time sleeping, and yea, went shopping for awhile & bought a new m.a.c concealor! yayness! :)

in the evening, we saw the GLOW pageant contestants, Regine & Lin Yi taught them how to walk. heh. yep sometimes i wish i had a hot body to strut. lol. i need to lose weight so ppl can stop calling me FAT! :( (i should go for a run)

anyways. we (Chang boon, Gan jun, Wei ming, jaryll, Eng Chang, Regine, Wee Kiat, Wen Bin, Spencer & Malvina) went to Javier's salad bar rotisserie at Cineleisure. wha. the food ah. really the best value for money ever la. i shared a big plate of ribs + any amount of sides + salad with 1 more person at $18.80, so its like $9.40 per person.. its super worth it, cos u can pile up a lot of food. if u see the amount of food on a person's plate, u may get scared. lol. Regine & Wee Kiat bought a 1/2 chicken, but they piled up the food such that the hid 1/4 of the chicken & ended up paying for only 1/4 chicken!! at $8.90 + $3.90 free flow salad. whahah

yaa.

after dinner, the whole gang except for Spencer & Malvina who went of to pator, went to watch Cowboys & Aliens. Darren & Boon liang joined in also. wah. but seriously, cowboys & aliens is like the worst movie ever la. its so frikkin random :/ i slept during the movie (but i think it was bcos i was sick) haha.

lucky i managed to catch the last bus sia! cos the movie was from 9.40pm-11.40pm. super heng!

today is national day, it doesnt feel like it cos i didnt catch a single glimpse of the fireworks :( + i've watched the parade b4. so it felt like national day passed alr.

and national day means that sch is starting soon :( gosh. need to start mugging! and i gotta focus!!

Highlights of Metamorphosis 2011 - Rockstar Supernova

2011-08-09T20:58:00.007+08:00

HEllo!

its been awhile since i've blogged. cos i've been really really occupied the past few weeks.

Meta camp is the one that really kept me occupied.

the camp was from 3rd-5th aug 2011, but we(org comm) had to come back on 2nd aug too, + since we ended late on 5th aug, we stayed over at night too, so it was a camp that was from 2-6 aug.

but yep. the sponsorship for the camp was awesome!! all thanks to the awesome sponsorship team, they managed to get a lot of sponsors for all the freshies + some as prizes (sonic gear headphones & speakers) + an exclusive league jacket for the org comm. heehee

so, what's in the goodie bag?

-> cleo magazine

-> time magazine

-> bid munchies credits

-> an electronic device: with multiple usb ports

-> frank by ocbc voucher + stickers

-> frank by ocbc bag

-> a few other vouchers by fabulous group & chapter 2

not forgetting,

league sports shoes for everyone!! how awesome is that??

its not every camp u go to that u get free sports shoes!

so yep. we're super ups!

the biggest misfortune that befell on us was rain on the day we went to Sentosa. its damn sad la. we planned everything until swee swee but it just had to rain :(

plus that day NUS FASS also went down to sentosa, so they occupied most of the space on the ground floor. luckily the carpark was big enough to hold us. whahaha

still i was damn shagged la.

cos the previous night was fright night, and ya. its damn tiring to set up everything + to act as the ghost (i actually slept on the job =X )

anw, another bad thing that happened was that we had to cancel the female toilet station :( and it was supposed to be the scariest station! :( u know why?

cos 1 of the org comm accidentally pulled the fire sprinkler open, so water sprayed out like none stop! we had to clean up the place quite a bit. its so wasted la, cos for that station, we actually had real hair. + used lipstick to create a bloody setup. damn! wasted :(

but yea. it sort of makes the camp more interesting i guess. lol

another highlight i must add is eating magnum ice cream!! =d

ohoh! and i was the station master for 2 games: Fun with Shampoo & Line Up (was supposed to be water dip) :( but that game got cancelled due to wet weather.

line up was quite boring, maybe its more fun when u play it. hopefully the freshies enjoyed all the games we set up for them. ^^

hmm.. other than that, i think that family night is rly quite good. especially the clan performance. omg. u gotta see fabian's abs! we all wonder why he didnt get selected for the SISS pageant last yr. hmm :/ but yeah, the clan performances were mediocre. except for a guy who could beatbox rly well. omg. he really sets the beatboxing standard. i swear. he's damn good. when he ended, i was rly awestruck. i swear. (*o*)

but the sad thing was even though the band sounded not bad, they didnt really play very high songs, and they didnt play enough, cos they kept wanting to sing their original songs. not that i think its bad but the songs were not appropriate and didnt set the mood :(

=D The past 3 + 2 days

2011-07-30T02:58:00.002+08:00

so many many things happened the past few days. gosh. its caused a loss in appetite + insomnia =X

in a good way i guess. wahaha. gosh.

what a big impact..

im too tired now, will prob blog more abt it next time? meanwhile, there's starring tmr! :D

Why are feelings so complicated?

2011-07-27T18:25:00.002+08:00

rahhh..

i just saw my ex posting a song.. i can't find the original song but it sounds rly good. and its making my heart ache.

oh gosh. what a torrent of emotions.

HAPPY :D

2011-07-24T13:46:00.001+08:00

crap. is it happening too fast? ahh. i'm quite scared. but super super happy at the same time... ahhh cant stop smiling. heeheehee =D +D xD

Jealousy's a Bitch

2011-07-19T20:57:00.003+08:00

but the real bitch is the being who thinks that he/she is superior and who acts haughty because they know that they are the superior being.

The feeling of being overshadowed by this bitch sucks, because he/she feeds on the attention he/she gets from his/her admirers.

Jealousy wouldn't be such a bitch if that being was a lot more humble about it.

Playing double gooseberry?

2011-07-19T02:16:00.002+08:00

hehe, today i spent time with unexpected people, doing unexpected(sort of) things. lol

ehh. this was actually supposed to be last weekend -> Sun 17 Jul - Mon 18 Jul 2011

on Sunday evening, i was actually prepared to stay home & nua the whole night, plus i was quite tired from the carwash + tuition alr. but yea, since its the summer hols, i didnt want to miss the opportunity to hang out & chill with my cuz (we're like bros :D)

so yeah, he called me out to his house to watch a horror movie which he borrowed -> the Blood Pledge.

its not that scary lo. haha in fact its quite funny & stupid. cos whenever the ghost shocked me, i wld go 'woah!' then we wld both laugh. hahaha. quite fun la. hehe. only prob was the screen was too small since i used my laptop and the size was also quite small (lousy dvd)

then after watching the movie, i was supposed to be damn tired, but we went out with Andre & Corde for supper anyway, we went to eat Roti Prata! (i just drank a teh cino tho, quite nice ^,^

heh, then aft coming back from supper(Corde went back home), we were all damn full, but not ready to slp yet. it was like 3am plus by then, so we watched The Last 3 days! its quite slow at the start but became super exciting (some parts were quite a joke) after awhile. but we watched for like an hr only b4 i started dozing off. so yea, that's it man, gotta go slp.

but the funny thing was, when we went back to Anton & Anne Marie's rm to slp, Anton started talking, then we talked about some stuff that made me quite excited so in the end, i wasnt so sleepy anymore. lol. so much for wanting to go back to slp cos i was too tired. haha guess wad, we talked for like 1-2 hrs until 5am mans. hehe. quite fun la, haven't talked to anyone like that in awhile (although i have been talking around to other ppl, nvr talked directly to someone in awhile, & we shared some deep secrets >.< lol, not rly deep secrets la, but ya, we're super tight cousins la! )

ehh, so ya, the next day (monday) i thought i was going back home immediately, or at most go back home after lunch. but guess wad? i ended up spending the whole day with Andre & Corde, & Anton & Mel. yea. i was playing double gooseberry. lol. i was with both my cousins and their girlfriends. hahaha. felt a bit weird la.

Guess what we had for lunch! Astons Prime!! omg its damn shiok! :D we ate like real crabcake, plus oysters (we saw a slug! D:) its quite gross. but they changed and I ate one after that, hmm. i dont think i will still appreciate oysters that much =X

ohoh! i ate the beer battered fish.

gosh. that's why i've been eating so much! :(

cos for the rest of the day, we pretty much spent the whole time walking arnd and buying food. its damn bad. i swear i gained 2 kilos after that.

ohoh! lemme tell u wad we ate beside the super filling lunch, we shared the sesame green tea frap from starbucks! yum :d plus, anton went to eat otah, while i bought a super yummy yoghurt black tea from the Isetan(along the underpass)! its damn nice eh! at first i didnt dare try it cos it sounds weird, but it turned out to be damn niceee :D

okok, then for dinner we went to Far East to find Corde's friend and got 30% off the sourmilk yoghurt, which is super super niceeee! :D hehe its rly damn nice la.

Somemore, the whole week, i went to MacD for lunch 3 days in a row! D: D: gna get fat :( :( that's why i tell my SIS friends that i rly ate a lot a lot, bcos they keep saying i eat damn little.

ya, then anw, that night, we went back to Anton's hse (if i had known, i wldnt have carried my laptop & bag all arnd) and we went all the way to Changi Village to eat Nasi Lemak cos Corde had a craving for it. haha.

eh.. on the shopping part, it was damn fun! cos since i was with Andre & Anton, we went to look at all the luxury brands. it felt a bit weird walking into those atas shops wearing slippers :x but i guess they didnt care. haha.. & i wasnt the only one wearing it.

we went to look at watches (OMG, BVLGARI & ZENITH is freaking niceeeeee!!!! wahhh. but damn ex also) and PATEK PHILIPPE is like UPS!

haha. okay uhm. i have a lot of other stuff to blog about but that's all for last sun-Mon :D

Good Wood Park Hotel Dimsum Buffet!

2011-07-16T20:12:00.003+08:00

Today was Bro's 21st birthday! hehe, as the oldest leong in the family, its expected that all my uncles & aunties will shower him with BIG BIG hong baos! lucky dude! :D

my parents spent quite a bomb this time, since the buffet costs about $30 per adult, and we occupied 3 tables (just relatives only though) haha and yep, we met Mary-Ann's fiance! how cool is that! she's finally getting married after seeing her with a different ang moh guy each time at every family (mum's side) gathering. heh. her fiance, Brad, is pretty cool, i didnt get a chance to talk to him but he's australian and the wedding will be held in Melbourne and my family (dad,mum, bro & sis) is invited! yay! so eggcited! heehee. its going to be held on 28th April and if the sch term is similiar to the one i had in yr 1, it shld have ended by then. and hopefully it doesnt clash with anything much! unless it clashes with APEX! *crosses fingers*

ahh. but my spot in APEX is still not confirmed yet though. but gosh. they can't just postpone the wedding date for anyone =X

but its nice to see Mary-ann finally settling down, cos she's still my cousin afterall, and the people she hangs around with are not the typical traditional chinese.. because her work culture has a lot of expatriates.

anw, back to my bro's bday, the food was awesome! heh! i ate quite a lot :x but the dimsum was good! the mini abalone siew mai, and char sao bao,etc etc. oh crap! i realize they dont have egg tarts! :( but they had other desserts like my fave almond cream (altho not that nice) and mango sago cream + cakes and mango pudding! :d :d :d

heh, this kinda makes me excited about my 21st too. but ive already thought of how i want it to be like, i wanna have a chalet or a bbq at some condo(if can)? or maybe my grandma's bungalow? haha her place has nvr been used to host outsiders b4 tho :x eh ya, but i wanna invite many groups of friends! like my best girlfriends, Sugarcoaters (we how tight!), starring one, & some of my close 4a & jc friends, :) and maybe some new friends that i'll make in starring camp now? haha see how close we get. of course my family will be there! :D

hmm, but yeah, still got 1 yr before i turn 21, before i take on the full responsibilities of becoming an adult. and yea, i still havent learn driving :/ bummer.

anyways. tmr got carwash + tuition! ahh. i hope i can solve any qn she throws at me this time, gotta revise! >.<

ohoh! to add on, i had the same cake 3 times in a week! how rare is that? haha

1st is Sarah's bday on 11 Jul

2nd : Jaryll's bday on 12 Jul (but we cut on 14 Jul)

and today: we cut the same cake again!

haha exactly the same somemore! & sarah was telling me that she had the same cake twice on her bday.

gosh. this cake is rly rly popular!! hahaha but its nice :)

oh! and we all received a complimentary durian custard dessert(supposedly famous) from the hotel! :D:D its damn good! :D bcos as a non-durian eater, i find that the durian taste & smell is light & not overwhelming. and i love the custard part! yum :d

SoundMagic PL30

2011-07-15T01:19:00.002+08:00

I just got a pair of new earphones: the SoundMagic PL30 and its AWESOME!

heh, was just reading a few reviews about it (i actually didnt read up before buying it, but tested it at the shop). I paid $46 for it.. sadly there was no discount :( there was a 20% discount for the other models though. like the E30 model was supposed to be %59 but a 20% discount wld mean that i can save about $10. but when i tried it, the fit didnt feel as good as the PL30.

Anyways, i read that the quality is really quite good (it sounds pretty good) for the below $50 range of earphones.

heck. u know my audio technica earphones (i can't rmb the model, but its the one with the key), i bought it from Japan at $20+ but it costs $48 in sg, so yea. and the quality is not as good as the current one!

I also tried TDC in the shop, the price is around $40~ but the quality sucks :x ehh

I'm rly happy with my new earphones! nuff said :)

Metal

2011-07-15T00:38:00.000+08:00

I'm so into Metal music now! hahaha :D

Weird?

2011-07-14T22:27:00.002+08:00

hahaha. gosh. i didnt even realize it but yea, Spencer, Jaryll & Wen Bin all say that i've been acting very weirdly recently. what did i do?! haiyo

after some probing, Spencer said that I'm like different, with mood swings? i dunno. hahah

whatever the case is, i need to keep improving myself!

i want to stop being seen as blur and stupid and useless. i want to be a better human being :D

Getting more & more busy

2011-07-13T21:49:00.002+08:00

now that school term is gonna start soon.

I have a lot of things on my mind that i can't seem to shake off. its damn annoying :(

on the other hand, starring camp was quite fun. i get to meet new people. it feels kinda weird. cos the guys are older than me even though they'll be my junior. u know what i mean? haha

one of the guy is pretty interesting though. cos he's catholic! and we have quite a few similiar interests. though I'm not saying that i'm into him. yeah

soo. i just came back from OCSP's post ex at the national musuem! then aft that we went to Timbre for dinner. haha. eh dinner was dinner lo. but catching up with Malcolm was quite fun.

I dont dare blog about my feelings anymore. Im afraid of people who judge me. meh.

ohwells. can't wait for META CAMP! :D:D

Fresh new look! (I guess :p )

2011-07-11T03:24:00.003+08:00

Hmm, i got mixed reviews about my hair, some ppl say long hair nicer, some say that this hair is nicer (hmm, maybe the not nice one is also when i nvr blow my hair) but ah.. i hope it looks nicer? its a lot lighter & easier to manage tho (esp since now is the camp period ^^)

P.S. I'm quite happy that someone said i look nicer with my new hair :D

^.^

2011-07-09T00:13:00.001+08:00

Heehee, I'm quite happy my eye candy throughout the camp added me on fb! he's so cute! kyaa! ><

okays, gna slp liao :)

'Waiting for the End' ~ Linkin Park

2011-07-05T23:48:00.001+08:00

This is not the end
This is not the beginning,
Just a voice like a riot
Rocking every revision
But you listen to the tone
And the violent rhythm
Though the words sound steady
Something empty's within 'em

We say Yeah!
With fists flying up in the air
Like we're holding onto something
That's invisible there,
'Cause we're living at the mercy of
The pain and the fear
Until we dead it, Forget it,
Let it all disappear.

Waiting for the end to come
Wishing I had strength to stand
This is not what I had planned
It's out of my control....

Flying at the speed of light
Thoughts were spinning in my head
So many things were left unsaid
It's hard to let you go...

(Oh!) I know what it takes to move on,
I know how it feels to lie,
All I wanna do
Is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven't got

Sitting in an empty room
Trying to forget the past
This was never meant to last,
I wish it wasn't so...

(Oh!) I know what it takes to move on,

[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/waiting-for-the-end-lyrics-linkin-park.html ]

I know how it feels to lie,
All I wanna do
Is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven't got

What was left when that fire was gone?
I thought it felt right but that right was wrong
All caught up in the eye of the storm
And trying to figure out what it's like moving on
And i don't even know what kind of things I've said
My mouth kept moving and my mind went dead
So, picking up the pieces, now where to begin?
The hardest part of ending Is starting again!!

All I wanna do
Is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what i haven't got...

This is not the end
This is not the beginning,
Just a voice like a riot
Rocking every revision
But you listen to the tone
And the violet rhythm
Though the words sound steady
Something empty's within 'em
(Holding on to what i haven't got)

We say Yeah!
With fists flying up in the air
Like we're holding onto something
That's invisible there,
'Cause we're living at the mercy of
The pain and the fear
Until we dead it, Forget it,
Let it all disappear
(Holding on to what i haven't got!)

July July

2011-07-05T23:38:00.005+08:00

The flowers are starting to smell.. No, actually, it's been smelling quite bad for awhile now..

Its time to throw it away and move on..

I saw his msn status: because its easier dummy.

My heart sank. and i actually thought that things felt lighter..

I cant focus. need to do LOMS, bidding and apply for APEX..

& i better start revising soon.

I'm damn scared :(

On the other hand, meeting up with Tina (who came back from UK but will only be back for awhile), Si Ting, Olivia & Jo for breakfast was fun :)

Plus, retail therapy with Jo was super awesome! :D we bought a couple top!! plus i bought a paid of shorts & 2 other shirts! hehe. i must say this is one of the most successful shopping spree. meaning, i spent quite a lot of money. lol ><

NDP Pictures!

2011-07-05T21:28:00.001+08:00

I like this picture! :D

A Steady Low

2011-07-04T01:06:00.003+08:00

hmm. Being single kinda keeps my mood swings a steady low. haha but not like depression low, probably more normal i guess? Not like the usual ups and downs of being in a relationship.

Hmm. I asked a friend out to watch the NDP with me, but only cos i cldnt find anyone else to go with.. I hope he doesnt get the wrong signal and hopefully nobody stirs shit between us! haha. ah ya, and i hope he's not into me! haha, but he's a rly nice friend la :)

Anw, I can't bear to throw away the bouquet of flowers from him. Its the first time someone ever gave me such a big bouquet.. even though the flowers have kinda dried up alr (i stopped watering it like 1.5 weeks after the break up when bro brought it into his room.

ya, and my mum & maid keep asking me to throw it away, but i can't bear to. haha i'm also a bit lazy :p

I need to meet up with him to pass him back his stuffs though. haha. today my mum was asking me about it, but she got the whole situation wrong.. haha, she thought he was testing me.

My mixed feelings

2011-07-03T21:09:00.004+08:00

Mmm. Australian milo, chocolate bread & Kaya for dinner! :d

ehh. I've got a huge pimple on my butt! :(

I'm scared about OASIS bidding! D:

I'm excited about camp this coming thurs! XD

I dunno whether i shld cut my hair =S

Someone is so annoying! cant stand it. ><

I wonder how he's doing =X

Haiss

Insomnia

2011-07-02T04:03:00.002+08:00

I can't sleep :(

I've got a free ticket to go watch the NDP parade preview later on and i haven't found a friend to watch it with yet. :/

And i really can't sleep. i tried by going to bed at 2.15am, and moved around in bed for an hour (it actually felt like more than an hr)

so yea, decided to get up and eat some peanut butter bread! :d

Aii. I think its the tea i drank this morn. Its kinda like a drug? I haven't been drinking tea for awhile cos I'm getting plenty of sleep, so i guess when i drank it this morn, the caffeine is still in my blood stream?

Hmm. a lot of things has happened so far, got me thinking about other things as well as kept my mind of him.. i still miss him la. but I don't know. I've got weird feelings.

Maybe the caffeine is making me think too much. =X

Breakfast at camp!

2011-07-01T12:17:00.002+08:00

we had breakfast at Pick & bite today, and when i went to buy a cup of hot tea: supposed to be $1.10,

i gave exact , but the auntie was like: bu yong 1 mao, leng loi ah leng loi.

(she gave me a discount)

then she smiled at me. hehe (leng loi means pretty girl ><)

ahahha. then i felt quite happy. lol

Bruised Thumb

2011-06-30T00:15:00.002+08:00

I bruised my thumb while playing basketball today :( it hurts! >< but i still continued playing.

haha. anyways, had fun chatting with my buddies too :D

Ahaha. some sweet words from a not so sweet friend: "No matter who broke your heart, or how long it takes to heal, you'll never get through it without your friends." (and that friend actually copied it from some website, so no sincerity at all! bleahs)

hahaha, but i guess its true? :)

Thanks to all my friends for just being a friend :)

Emo-mo-mo

2011-06-29T00:38:00.000+08:00

Oh mans. feeling emo-mo-mo now.

Heart's beating too fast. can't stop it :(

My Birthday Celebration with (some of) the girls

2011-06-28T23:28:00.005+08:00

& 2 guys from our OCSP trip :)

So we met up at first to go to Kith Cafe (the one i read on wan swen's blog), its a lot smaller than expected. esp the babycino. lol. cos it looked so big in her blog! haha

the food was pretty awesome though, ate the scrambled eggs & bacon toastie. yum :d and the bratwurst was nice! :) a little too pricey though.

i like this picture!! :D
That's the smirnoff that we purposely went out to buy, but in the end it got confiscated and we didnt drink much :(
Haha! i just realized that my shirt had a combination of Olivia & Jo's shirt colours! I love my shirt :p

the 2 guys were like an older generation, singing hokkien songs. lol

New Perfume!! yay :D

2011-06-28T22:53:00.003+08:00

HeartThrob of the month!

2011-06-27T17:31:00.002+08:00

Oh mans. Ryan Reynolds is so HOT! just watched Waiting..(2005) last night with my family. i think he wasn't famous then, but still. he's so hot! look at his Six-pack!

I still wanna watch The Green Lantern.. anyone wanna watch with me? :D hee

"Any Other World"

2011-06-26T03:47:00.001+08:00

I Love this song by Mika, its so beautiful :)

In any other world
You could tell the difference
And let it all unfurl
Into broken remnants

Smile like you mean it
And let yourself let go

Cos it's all in the hands of a bitter, bitter man
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
Take a bow, play the part of a lonely lonely heart
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
To the world you thought you lived in

I tried to live alone
But lonely is so lonely, alone
So human as I am
I had to give up my defences

So I smiled and tried to mean it
To let myself let go

Cos it's all in the hands of a bitter, bitter man
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
Take a bow, play the part of a lonely lonely heart
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
To the world you thought you lived in

Cos it's all in the hands of a bitter, bitter man
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
Take a bow, play the part of a lonely lonely heart
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
To the world you thought you lived in

Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in [x2]
Say goodbye

In any other world
You could tell the difference

[Spoken]
"I never ever, I forget my story.
My face is not sad, but sometimes, I am sad."

Headshots

2011-06-24T21:39:00.003+08:00

Gosh. I'm so vain! but who knows how ugly I'll look in the future D:

so btr take some photos & preserve it online first. heh

Anyway, i doubt people still read my blog. its more for future reference :p

Omg. i can't stand the stupid ad that appears when i open my blog :( its damn annoying and i don't know how to remove it. its like hidden in the html D: I'm beginning to think blogger sucks.

at least give me the option of turning it off right? arghhz!

Dress Up!

2011-06-24T21:03:00.002+08:00

Ehh. Its a girl thing to dress up. heh and when i have so much free time before going out, i like to mix & match funky colours! hahaha =)

and ya. my webcam's angle too short to take the whole body =X so yep. will upload headshots soon! =P

That's the red ladder you'll find in quite a lot of my pictures:

=( can see my sister's pile of books on the floor. so messy! D:
Hehe. dressing up gives you confidence! and there's nothing sexier than a confident lady :p ehehe

Oh My.

2011-06-24T06:51:00.001+08:00

My horoscope kinds of describes what i blogged last night :O

Your Daily Horoscope: June 24, 2011

Gemini

May. 21 - Jun 20
(Wrong Sign?)

Maybe something you thought was complete isn't over yet, Gemini, because you seem to, once again, want to put an end to something. Maybe someone did not understand that things had reached a state of completion several weeks ago, but this time you are likely to have allies or other resources to back up your efforts. It's also possible that you've decided that some form of group commitment is getting in your way, and are ready to disconnect yourself from it. If so, try not to let others talk you out of it.

Compatibility: Aries
Mood: Sincere
Your Daily Lucky Color: Yellow
Lucky Number: 25
Lucky Time of Day: 11am

Moving On?

2011-06-23T23:21:00.003+08:00

As i stare at this blank post template. my mind kept generating thoughts and ideas about what i should blog about.

However, out of all the ideas, i think what i should really blog about is my feelings & my thoughts about them. blogging about it kinds of solidifies all the confusing thoughts in my head. it makes things seem clearer, it makes it seem as if now i really know what i'm thinking about.

Yu Chen, if you're reading this (i can't tell whether you are), please stop. Please stop thinking about me and move on. i don't know how you're reacting to this breakup & how you are feeling. you might be thinking the same thing too. sometimes, when my mind drifts, i think about the times we had together, sometimes, i try to cling onto them as well. because, it is undeniable that we shared some really happy times together. I really learnt a lot about having a significant other when i had you as my boyfriend. and now that you're gone. i just don't feel used to it. I miss you and feel very tempted to get back together with you (not saying that you'll accept me back) but now that we've broken up. I feel that there's no point clinging on to something that i don't have anymore. I hope you don't get pissed if you ever see me moving on faster than you (I'm not saying that i am, because i don't know how you're doing) but just let it go alright?

Now that we've broken up, i think it's best to stop thinking about each other.

Go and experience life. Do whatever you've wanted to do before and seriously take this opportunity to pursue your goals. I remember one of your blog posts about your goals in life. about you having it clearly sorted out, about wanting to go to the US to study criminal forensics. That is your passion and i want you to pursue it. Please be more mature in your thinking... You've told me before that you're willing to give up studying in US to stay in sg, but i think you're too naive.. That's why I had to do it.. I didn't want to tell you straight in your face because i know it would hurt. but yes. you are a hopeless romantic. I'm not saying its a bad thing, but sometimes you do get caught up in love and all its whimsical fancies.

I know I'm a more realistic person, and i am not as perfect as you thought i was. I have a lot of flaws. I honestly don't know myself very well, but i guess i like to seek out adventure. Not that being with you wasn't an adventure, it was one heck of an adventure but i don't know. i guess we are different and maybe we do fit, but not perfectly, so please don't be angry at me?

I am trying to move on now, and I don't know who has the easier way out.. I thought about it.. your army life continues and you'll just have lonely weekends (it'll be like the time i was overseas) but for me. I'm having my holidays now with so much free time on my hands. its like having the weekends multiplied. and you know how much it sucks to feel so lonely? Though i am trying, because since everyday feels like one of those weekends we used to spend together, I feel a little better everyday.

On days where i stay at home alone, i feel really appreciative of friends who come online to talk to me. and friends who make me laugh. :)

Today when i went out with my Meta friends for dinner, i really laughed quite a lot.. and that felt really good. i laughed til my stomach ached. haha. and KFC was good! haha, even though i was reluctant to eat it at first cos its fattening, but everyone else wanted to eat it.. so okay lo. haha

I guess that's all i want to say for now.. guess I'm slowly moving on..

So Cute!

2011-06-22T03:16:00.001+08:00

Was going through the videos we made for Anton.. he looks super cute here!

Something caught my eye, i just had to share

2011-06-21T23:50:00.002+08:00

Haha!

Not that I'm saying that's the case for me. but i think this is interesting. haha.

i like the way he squeezes her boobies. =P

Source: dailyshite.com

Thoughts..

2011-06-21T17:17:00.004+08:00

Blogging is getting to be quite addictive for me. haha. especially when i have so much free time now. I've been blog hopping & its quite fascinating to read stories about other people's lives, see how much they've changed over time (more of the physical aspect) and even though i may not know the blogger very well, i begin to feel like I'm that person's friend, who's sharing her life story with me.

Some people (especially those using tumblr) like to repost images or words that inspire them, others like to share their daily experiences while some like to talk about their feelings. Hmm. and its quite heartening to find people who still update their blog regularly. and when i read that blog. i get a bit envious. I'll think "wow. her life's so exciting.. it kinda makes me feel like I've left out on life. i was reading the blog entry i posted on 24th Oct 2006 and it made me think about something i heard before..

"We came to the World with nothing, we'll leave the World with nothing, but our Memories"

and recently i was reading an article about the top 5 regrets people have in their lives, one of which is this: I wish I didn’t work so hard.

Maybe success is overrated. I mean we've been pursuing achievement our whole life that we tend to forget the people around us, the little joys in life and the many experiences we could have enjoyed.

It's just a small thought. :)

When i was Cute =P

2011-06-21T16:43:00.000+08:00

Hahaha. I kinda like this photo :p

JC mates celebrated my bday!

2011-06-20T21:02:00.002+08:00

OMG! how can i forget that my JC classmates celebrated my birthday (including the other 2 june babies). we went to Ice^3 cafe at the Esplanade. the food was okay, i mean it tasted good but its seriously over priced. okay, maybe just the set meal was overpriced.. it was supposed to be some dessert cafe. but we had the main course there la.

ohoh! another highlight was the fireworks! cos there was the NDP rehearsal. so we got to see free fireworks! ^^ it was AWESOME

so yep. when everyone came, they surprised us with presents & cake! i was so touched la! heh :) :)

Hmm. other birthday spoils include a really nice eyeshadow aunty mary got for me from france & a pair of earrings, uncle james bought a nike shirt for me (haha i rmb he used to always get barbie dolls). i also met up with Lao shi and she got for me crabtree & evelyn lemon butter cookies! (super ex :O ) and the hot chocolate! which i'm going to slowly savour. heehee :D

then there's the hongbaos (from godpa + godma & mama) and last but not least, the awesome presents from my parents: the Dim sum lunch + birthday dinner (pizza + KFC+ Cake+ Drinks + BEN & JERRY's ice cream) but sarah finished like 1/3 of the cake?! plus more than half a tub of the choc macadamia ice cream :( eh but ya. my parents are the nicest to me la. :) esp now that i'm single. haha hmm.. guess i've lost that special someone..

ehh. ya. k la. family > friends (esp on a day that's impt to me) ^^

Other Highlights for the weekend

2011-06-19T22:11:00.007+08:00

Anyways, although my birthday day itself was quite uneventful, there have been a few happenings the past weekend.

1. Friday night went to Zouk with Jaryll, Spencer, Regine, Spencer's 2 close friends: Emily & Malvina plus Bro & his friends. actually it was bcos i got unlimited invites to Zouk for the fashion show. yup. and all i had to do was to give the names for the guestlist. but unfortunately, at the last min, Christabel (1 of the models) told us that she cld only get 8 invites for me, and i alr invited 12 ppl.. so it was quite a bummer.. luckily Jaryll & Spencer had a Citibank credit card, so they cld go in for free..
I also felt quite happy that i managed to get my friends into Phuture bcos i knew the bouncer: Desmond. haha so ya.

*NEW! PICTURES! hahaha*

(too lazy to rotate the photo :p)

2. Saturday i slept until quite late & then met up with Regine & Esther to go shopping!
they did a manicure first bcos i was late :x but ya. i wanted to do both manicure & pedicure, and they treated me! yay :D haha. it looks frikkin awesome

My Fingers & toes looks disgusting tho =X

yups. and i bought a nice mango top! yay! i wanna go shopping more! but lately also no mood? hais.

so yup. that fills up my weekend. i still feel bummed that my close smu friends didnt wish me though :(

My Birthday this yr pales in Comparison to last year

2011-06-19T21:04:00.002+08:00

So much so that I'm blogging now. haha. I've got nothing to do.
the only highlights are probably: drinking with Anton last night (bro was supposed to come, but cldnt at the last min, so yeah. i felt super emo about that since it was only going to be the 2 of us.. how fun can that be right?
and yeah. the alcohol made me a little high, & i felt super happy about receiving all the birthday wishes on fb. so yeah, that's a highlight

altho i cldnt slp betw 4-6am and started replying all the birthday wishes, before i cld finally slp

The next day (the day of my Birthday) i spent most of the time sleeping & eating.
I slept til like 11am and my dad picked me so that my whole family cld go to Peach Garden for dimsum lunch! haha. it was nice :)

Then yup, slept on the car while my dad drove to get some ice cream for the dinner party with the family tonight. so aft that, i went home to sleep, all the way til like 6.45pm, in time to get ready to go to mama's hse to eat dinner, which was KFC & Pizza.. lol. and aft that there's cake and Ben & Jerry's :D my fave.

other than that, i'm really happy about all the birthday wishes, especially the unexpected ones :) okay! gotta go.

It must be..

2011-06-17T02:14:00.003+08:00

Why do i feel so emotional now? I thought i'm not a very emotional person. I don't get sad so easily anymore..I'd like to think i know that I am the kind of happy-go-lucky person who tries to look on the brightside of life. Who seeks out fun and adventure, who's always ready to try new & exciting things (as long as it isn't damaging, like smoking & drugs)

Then why do i feel so sad now? I always feel sad whenever I have pms.
so it must be pms. I know that. it has to be.. I guess i'll just try not to think about it & blame it on that. I hate it. i hate being a girl for that reason..

Basketball!

2011-06-17T02:03:00.002+08:00

Basketball was quite fun today. I played with my SIS friends: Christie, Wee Kiat, Wen Bin, Jaryll, Spencer, Cynthia, Gan Jun, Chang Boon, Yao Guang, Wen Xiong(new friend). Wei Ming played for awhile but left after that to see his girlfriend who aparently was angry at him..

Hmm. it was okay la, not as fun as the first few times.. i think because we all became more serious? haha. but ya.

Hmm.. I don't know how to put it.. i won't write up everything on this blog. I don't want to fill it with sad memories. what's the point right? when i want to look back at this blog, i want to read about what happened..

I think my outlook may be quite happy, but inside, I'm hurting.. probably not as bad as him. but I miss him a lot =( and the thought of being so alone sucks..

I have never felt so unloved in my life :( because he was always there for me in the past. and now. there's nobody, there's nothing. And i was being stupid. of course nobody wld even know my birthday is coming up. i'm trying to not care so much about it, but i do want to feel loved just on this day..

This sucks. guess my heart is not so hard after all huh?

Hungry :(

2011-06-16T02:54:00.002+08:00

I'm so hungry, and i went to eat a bit alr eh. but I still feel hungry =(

Hmm. other than the feeling of hunger, I don't really know what I'm feeling, probably less confused now that I've come to a decision. I don't know whether I'm making a bad decision or whether I'm making a huge mistake.. but i know that I'll probably regret less by doing so.

My only concern is him. I'm so worried about him :( I'm scared he'll pick up the smoking habit, using the break up as an excuse to do so. Hais.

I was quite shocked at how things turned out actually.. Because ytd i went to look for him, to talk and also to chase him back. Because i missed him so much. i couldn't bear it. and i also wanted to pass him the butterfly i made.. yesterday kind of felt like a dream though.. we were happy & things felt like normal, like what we would normally do when we go out. it was awesome. i was happy. but today, somehow it feels as if it really was just a dream.

I met up with Sabrina, my sec 4 very good friend & she gave me some advice.. Plus, i also gathered more advice from my friends.. I guess, its best to let go.. Its better for him & for me. Hais. I miss him la..

So, i guess, i kept myself occupied by enhancing the Kashgar picture quality + uploading the remaining of the pictures on fb.

hmm.. I feel tired. & i still feel hungry. but not sleepy. i think its the coffee i drank, but before that i cldnt wake up when i napped in the afternoon! i had to force myself to wake up, if not i'll be late in meeting Sabrina. i love her top! I want to go shopping soon! find new clothes! :D

Flyer Distribution: A Social Experiment.

2011-06-13T20:23:00.008+08:00

Flyer Distribution may seem like a mundane job, but i'd like to think of it as disguise for a social experiment of the human psyche.
why?
Because if you think of it, we have constant variables: time, location
& the dependent variables can be: total no of humans (TH), no. of humans who take the flyer aka take-flyer human(TFH).
and what we can measure is (TFH/TH)/time.
since time can be a constant. we can get TFH/TH but you'll have to note that the presences of peak periods makes TH/time not a constant.

So..

We've got 3 more days to complete this social experiment! we'll have 1 more day at the same location, and 2 more days in another location.
i would go down to the statistics if i did actually count and was totally focused on my job (you know, like faithfully giving out flyers) but nah. i couldnt be bothered.
and what i've summed up above is only the statistical part to this social experiment, I'll talk about the observations later on.

Now, let's think about what do we want to find out from this social experiment..

Qn: Does the TFH/TH ratio decreases during peak period? What are the implications?

Okay, um. I'm not really going to count everything, but here are the details we've got:
Day 1: Monday
location: raffles Place (me) & Tanjong Pagar (friend)
Time: 8am-11am & 12noon to 3pm.

So these are the observations i've made at Raffles Place
observable peak period: 8am-9.30am highest (esp outside the mrt)
lunch crowd peak period: 12-2pm (all over the place esp near Chevron Mall & MRT underpass)

Hmm. i didn't count. but from the observations i made. my hands had to reach in & out many times during the morning crowd peak period & i had to be super quick too. because the people come up all quite close together. but the thing was, very few of them actually took the flyers. but since there were so many people. my first batch of flyers did run out quite fast ^^

ahh, but alas, when i looked back to grab more flyers, the bag disappeared! so i wasted some time looking for it. what a waste :( cld have given out more flyers

when i went back to give out more, that was when the woman caught me. by then i think it was about 10am alr. after that, i lost my sweet spot, & it became harder to distribute the flyers. if this were a real experiment, it wld have failed alr. haha cos location was not a constant variable.

but anyways. one observation i made is that when a person starts to take, a few people behind will also start to follow. I read that there is such a phenomena called the chameleon effect where people unintentionally start to mirror each other, but it could be due to being around the other people more often. i'm not sure whether this applies to strangers. hmm. but yup. mostly, people just ignore you.

BUT. there's a trick i learnt, make eye contact! and hand out the flyer as if you're giving a gift to them. this may seem like common sense. but let me tell you, it really makes a big difference! haha.

anyway, back to my title/ research qn. I'm still not so sure, but it seems that when the TH is higher, more people avoid taking the flyer, they'll just zoom past you. whereas during the non-peak period, i could offer the flyer to almost everyone. and surprisingly enough, i think the rejections were not as bad.

haha. I think either i think too much or i'm just bored :p

I feel more mature now. haha. as in, this holiday, i havent watched a single anime/drama series and even for the american series like Vampire Diaries & Prison Break, i havent gone on a sort of marathon. I dont know. maybe i'm not such a video addict anymore? or maybe i'm just looking for more things to stimulate my mind ^^

I want to rant somemore.

2011-06-13T19:44:00.003+08:00

Ehh. i think my friend is more pissed about it than me though. Cos i brought a book to read. But still, i felt damn paiseh taking up the 5 seater couch all to myself. (i was supposed to look as if I'm waiting for a friend, which i really was) but in the end the friend didnt appear. so yup. I bet other ppl wld look at me & think i'm selfish. 1 person hogging the nicest seat in Starbucks. and i didnt buy any drink until a while later (like after the staff cleared the table)

when he cleared the table. i felt damn guilty without any drinks. so even though i wasnt hungry, i bought a drink. and since i wasnt hungry, the drink could last quite long. but i'm damn full now. it looks like a venti size instead of tall(which i ordered) so i'm not complaining. but still.

what a day. i felt so alone. Thank god i have my book.

I feel so sticky. i need to bathe!!!

This blog is my trustworthy ranting ground.

2011-06-13T19:05:00.003+08:00

Arghhh!!!!!

Today is seriously a very bad day for me =(
Distributing flyers sucks. you'll feel like some scum of the earth. Everyone just ignores you, except for the occasional nice person who willingly helps to take your flyer.

Then I got kicked out by the stupid MRT lady not once, but twice!! humiliating me completely. ARGHHH! FUCK HER STUPID MRT LADY!!!!!

BITCH

okay, the first place was directly outside the escalator (still inside the building) so i perfectly understood why i'm not allowed to distribute the fucking 3kg flyers in there, so i went to the exit to distribute them instead. which is like outside already. but she still come & kachao me. wtf. i'm just trying to do my job right?
BITCH.

okay. the next thing was, the boss also might do a spot check or sth liddat, and my phone batt died by lunch time. so i travelled 30mins all the way home, & had to bear with the scorching heat. Singapore is fucked up man. seriously. my whole body was sweating la!

(oh! but the good thing i learnt today was: my sweat doesnt stink. ^^)

so anyway. i went home, altho i knew i was gna get dirty & sweaty again, i rly cldnt stand it, so i took a very quick shower. and i saw that the battery was more than half & hopefully, cld last the whole day.

then came the next big piss-me-off thing of the day.
THE BATTERY DIDNT LAST, & MY FRIEND GOT PISSED OFF & I GOT PISSED OFF
cos, my friend & i arranged to meet. i did tell her that the batt was low, so we arranged a time & place: city hall starbucks 3.30pm. i reached at 3.35pm but my friends wasnt there yet. i checked my phone. and guess what? the phone batt died. already. BLOODY FUCKER PHONE(your battery life is supposed to be the best thing i can get out of you right? WHAT HAPPENED?) rahhhh.

so i thought, i'll look around first, (see whether she's there), then i spotted empty couch seats & thought we cld use some added comfort! so yup. i sat down there first, & occasionally walked out to see if she would be waiting outside. but she's nowhere to be seen eh. hais.
lucky i brought a book to read. & lucky its a good book i bought. if not ah. i'll be damn bloody bored.

I'm sorry I'm cursing and swearing a lot now. Fuck the good girl image la. i'm bloody pissed.

So the last thing that pisses me off is travelling. i hate travelling(as in, only in sg). its a complete waste of time & money. and each time i tap my ez-link, i feel very xin tia (learnt this phrase from jo) haha. and i made 5 freaking trips today eh.
1. kemb-> raffles place
2. lunch break: raffles place-> kemb
3. (bus to bedok), bedok-> raffles place
4. raffles place to city hall (1 stop, still $0.71)
5. after a wasted trip (because i travelled to city hall to meet my friend but didnt get to meet her) city hall -> home (i took a bus this time. i hate changing to bus after getting off the mrt)

haiiiii. all this because i didnt fully charge my phone last night, thinking it would last. this is one hell of a phone. bloody fucker. I'm so fucking pissed right now. and yes. I'm venting it all out on this blog cos i got noone & nowhere else to vent it out to.

Can't Stop Thinking

2011-06-11T13:24:00.002+08:00

Gosh. Thoughts keep filling up my mind. I cant take it.

Will you hate me if I got over you sooner than you did?
My sister just said: It's not everyday that you find a guy like Yu Chen.
and i know that, thats why i feel like i'm making a terrible mistake letting you go. Ahh, but should i hold on to you even if i know holding on will hurt you even further?

But if I hold on, I'll feel like I'm using you. maybe you're right, maybe i did use you (although i never intended to) hais. I'm sorry =(

I'm so confused =(

2011-06-10T23:25:00.002+08:00

Hopefully listening to some classical music can help calm my mind.

I NEED A FRIEND right now.

I had a long ride home, from Boon Lay to Kembangan. It gave me time to think. but all i could think about was him. I dunno whether its because i had some help from all the Emo songs in my iPhone. I dont know. I miss him, I want to get back together with him but i feel like if i stayed with him, i would hurt him even further. I feel like saying this would make me seem like a nice girl. But i know I'm not. I'm a selfish bitch. I want him and everything else. I want attention, i want to experience more, but i want him too.
I know he wouldn't care, because he loves me so much. & i know that i am very very lucky to have met a guy like him, but I'll keep hurting him, & I've hurt him many times before.

Gosh. i suck at articulating my feelings. You realize, most of what i blog about is about daily events, events that excite me. It makes my life seem so exciting, i mean it is, but i guess it's not all me. It doesn't mean that when you read my blog, you'll understand me better.
I know I am more complex than that, even though i may seem simple. I'm not saying that i am a very complex person with deep dark secrets but ya, even i dont understand myself sometimes.

And i guess now is one of those times. I just feel so confused. I havent figured out what i want in life yet. I havent figured out my passion and I am not focusing on my studies. I feel stupid. Guess i really am stupid huh?

I thought i knew what love is. If i really was in love, then why am i throwing it away? rahh.. On the way home, i felt so heartbroken, i felt regret & loneliness. But i dont know whether i should go back to him.

I have so many things on my mind. I need to sort them out, but i dont even know where to begin. I'm so confused :(

2nd Anniversary

2011-06-07T20:15:00.002+08:00

GOsh, so many things happened over the past weekend. I feel like my life is really exciting right now. haha

first of all,
we had our 2nd year anniversary on Fri 3rd July. That day, i had to go for the starring faci bonding camp in the day. it was quite fun, we had the star run first (dry games, some of which are quite boring) then after that we had the wet games. which i got completely wet. haha i started to get super wet when we played the game where we're supposed to catch/pour the water from a scooper into a 1.5L bottle. then there are other games that involve soap & water bombs. all quite fun. heh. esp if you're more garang like me ;)

So, at night, after showering, i went to meet up with Yu Chen. he's the sweetest guy on earth la. he blindfolded me, and made me follow him. so and yup. i took a lift up. waited for him to release my blindfold & saw a BIG BOUQUET of Lily FLOWERS in a hotel room. Oh man. i felt so lucky, happy & guilty all at the same time. haha guilty cos my present really sucks compared to his. But, we ordered room service! my treat ^^
So after that, we went to walk along Haji Lane (looking for the gula-melaka ice cream! which we didnt find in the end) and so in the end, decided to go find some other ice cream. we ate island creamery in the end. its super nice! i tried the cookie dough specialty mix. it's more awesome than ben & jerry's. more ex too :p

Yep. so then, at night, we went to a pub. he ordered a pina colada & I ordered a scotch & ameratto liqour mix. heh.
& i must say this. Yu Chen's my hero la! cos i asked him, "you dare walk out without paying?" he said he dared la, but i didnt rly believe that he wld dare. so after awhile, when we finished our drinks, he stood up & walked out by the back door.
then i was a bit confused. like dunno whether i shld stay or go, but i quickly just followed him. and i thought he paid when he ordered the drinks or sth but guess what? he really didnt pay for the drinks at all. Totally my hero la! heh

the next day, we went to eat at Toastbox! yum :d and heh. everyone kept staring at me with my big bouquet of flowers.. i cldnt stop blushing. ahh. i bet they're thinking:" Lucky bitch" hahaha.

Gosh. i really don't deserve a guy like Yu Chen. He's wayy too good for me le.
So, he sent me home & i took a while to shower etc, then we went to the Cheesecake cafe! he bought the vanilla choc-chip cheesecake & i bought the strawberry-oreo cheesecake! yum :d ah. i bet oreo makes a lot of money.
so yup. after eating our cheesecakes. (the interior design for cheesecake cafe is so super nice! it has a very roman feel)

At night, i had to leave him, cos i met up with my VJ OG friends! haha specifically Yunrong, Germaine, Sherman, Sin chi & Mayer :) but Germaine & i came later (like just for dinner) we went to the shokudo at Raffles place cos Sherman has this voucher, that if we spend over $100, we can use the $50 discount voucher! it was quite fun catching up with them la :) heh.

haha then the funny thing is, the next day, i met up with My classmates (including Mayer) at the same place. and we sat at the exact same spot. its damn cool la. hahaha

ohohoh! on sat night, i went to stay over at the Lim's house (so my clothes were also the same. lol!) it was damn fun la! we bought some snacks, super yummy indian mango and talked cock all night. anton made us some alcoholic drinks so we just drank & got merry :)

so yeah, that night i cldnt slp! :( i think it was bcos of the redbull. i cldnt sleep til 4am :(

On Sunday, after the lunch, i went shopping with Yu Chen! :D heh bought a pair of black studded heel pumps, a pair of super nice colourful bikini from Cache cache (20% discount!) i didnt take time to consider it, cos when i tried it on, i like the clutch at the bank( prefer it to string bcos it felt more secure) the halter neck top looks sturdy too :p heh. and yup. i also got it cos i was alr planning to get one by this week. esp since Wan Swen has been desperatly wanting to go to Sentosa to sun tan :p i also bought an awesome brown leather bag from topshop. ahh! i love it la, cos i saw it b4, but didnt get it cos it was too ex: $76, but there was a sale: $39! whoo! :)

heh. anyhow. on monday, we went to Sentosa! hahaha. actually the weather forecast said it wld rain, but that it wld clear by afternoon. i was thinking that there wld be no sun. but ya, wan swen rly wanted to go. haha. but in the end, there rly was no sun. so didnt get tanned at all :( oh wells. this sun i'm gg to sentosa again! but im gna wear my white tank top over the bikini. i dont want to expose all my fats! ahhh. hahaha.

the coffee bean's new cookies & cream frap is super awesome, X-men was super awesome too :D

That's all for now. hope there'll be more new & exciting updates about my hols! ^^
I'm hungry =X

ehehe. Picture of the day! :p

2011-06-02T15:08:00.002+08:00

HOliday UPdates!

2011-06-02T14:53:00.002+08:00

I've had a really busy but awesome summer! ^^
2nd - 20th May: OCSP to Kashgar
23-24, 26-27 May: SL314
30-31 May: Project Management course (which my team won first place for the game! we won a 32GB thumbdrive, its freaking awesome)
30th: Jo & ws'S Bday celebration at Holland VIllage's Everything with Fries! :D
31st: went to visit Olivia with JO & WS in the hospital :(
1st June: free day, but went to visit Joshua in the Hospital (down with Pneumonia)
2nd June (TOday): gg to meetup with META Camp Org comm! :D
3rd JUNE: 2nd Year anniv! :D:D but got starring faci bonding camp in the day :(

Yep. that sums up everything, but i've got many many stories to tell that happened in between. esp about the trip too. and the weekends..
But, yup. thats private :p

Hmm.. i wonder how others think about me. like as in, what kind of person am I?

Summer kind of Wonderful (week 2)

2011-05-01T01:58:00.005+08:00

Oh mans. Summer has been so so awesome!!
gosh. i dont even know where to begin!
hmm. lets begin where i left off. last week at the chalet.
so much has happened since then.
On sunday, since i Yu Chen had to go back to camp,
i spend most of my time slacking at home for the first time. haha.
it was quite fun la, i played a game i've been longing to play. for lack of resources, i played the RPG that can be found on my HP computer: Fate. and i played for almost 4 hrs straight. it was pretty fun. haha a bit mindless really. but still quite fun

Then, quite a lot of things happened on Monday.
i had to go back to school for an impt OCSP briefing. and after that, was supposed to go for a bonding session with OCSP mates at the Settler's Cafe. that day was pretty epic. cos even though i woke up early & planned to go to the meeting early so that i could draw some money for the trip ( to pay Hansel & to exchange with Olivia) but the prob was that I FORGOT TO BRING MY WALLET. so yup. my dad dropped me off at Kemb mrt station so tt i cld take the train down to sch. and i was early u know. cos i planned to be early. but in the end, without my wallet, i was left stranded and yup. i cldnt really contact my dad. so yup. i cldnt draw the extra money and cldnt travel anywhere. i only cld try my luck in contacting my dad. luckily he picked up the phone after calling him many times. (wanted to use the word uptheen but dunno how to spell :X ) haha so ya. and in the end i had to wait quite long before he picked me up to send me back to get my wallet (and matric card which proved to be v. impt later on) so yup. in the end, i was 25mins late for the meeting :( lucky they havent started (maybe cos there were others who were later than me :O ) so yeah.
after the meeting, i wanted to go to helpdesk and reset my smuvista password so that i can check my results.
hmm. my AW results are like shit :( but DM quite okay.

then when i left the helpdesk. i bumped into Wen Bin, Spencer, Gan Jun & Eng Chang. haha the funny thing was that wenbin told me he was waving to me when i was walking but i didnt see him. instead a classmate of his(whom he's actually not v. familiar with saw him waving) then wen bin lowered his big wave to a no-no wave(meaning he wasnt waving to her) but she thought he was still waving to her. so in the end he just wave wave. lol. damn funny la. it was only after that that i spotted them sitting in koufu.
then right, i told matilda that i wld join them after fixing my laptop, but ehh. i had to 'go & do loms' haha. which we really went to do la. but we finished earlier and then went off somewhere instead of gg back to the settlers cafe. haha
we followed gan jun to go find pretty girl(a frisbee player, wont name who :p) and ya. in the end, only gan jun played frisbee while we sat at the field & talked. it was pretty fun. heh. it was only after a while that i bumped into wan swen! ah. i feel bad for missing her & jo's bday :(

aft that we decided to go to Bugis to walk and prob grab a bite. the guys did but i decided to wait til the dinner(fish soup which i didnt finish in the end)
but yup. we waited for gan jun to join us for dinner
after dinner, we played monopoly deal. it was quite fun (wld be super fun if i weren't so blur )
so yup. we played til 9+ and i went home in time to skype Yu Chen!

haha. gosh. that was a detailed account of mon.
nth much happened on tues, i slacked mostly, used the com and started packing at night.

on wed. i had my OCSP pre-expedition to the Asian Civilization Musuem! heh. we met earlier for lunch and i scalded my tongue with the milo. it hurt for 4 days! and i cldnt taste a lot of food :( wad a bummer :(
but after lunch. we went to take care of kids at the ACM. i took care of 2 girls. somehow i rmb them super well. Micole and Kaixin. haha micole said that her name is unique, which i agree. heh. and at first they were super slow. like the last. haha i think cos we were kinda lost most of e time >< heh. then they call me jie jie. heh. feels quite nice. hmm. in the China exhibit, they started talking about their astigmatism and Nathan cldnt stop laughing at them. haha but ya. they're quite cute la. also they got scared of the big diety models in the musuem

after the xpedition, i went shopping at parkway alone! haha i helped yu chen develop his taiwan videos and bought hair mask + 2 books! yay! cant wait to be engrossed in it and read it on the trip. gosh i spent so much money :( i also bought a pair of shades & tights from cotton on! yay! lucky i used the $20 voucher i got from the nice ppl at Ren Ci. i shld seriously go visit them someday :) oh! i also ate my fave choc waffle from parkway! yay

on thurs, i met Regine for lunch/dinner at 4.30pm at Bugis.
we ate at the food court and after that drank super yummy i love taimei drink!
aft that was the META camp meeting in sch. the meeting was quite fruitful ^^
after the meeting. i was super super lucky to be able to meet Yu Chen. he's the most awesome person ever la! :D we went to eat a bit at the Cathay :D
then aft tt, i went to the Starring chalet! haha. i was the latest to arrive at the chalet (it was supposed to start at 12noon but i was busy ma) so yup
went to watch a freaking awesome movie: Thor.
lucky i came arnd 11, so still got time to bathe and play a bit of the circle of death. omg. the theatre was so cold la! haha lucky i brought my dress i was supposed to wear the next day to cover myself :)

heh, after the movie, they wanted to find a place for supper but we spent most of the time deciding. in the end, some of them just went to eat macs.
after that. we went back to the chalet and played raving rabbits! a super cute wii game! haha. aft that i transferred some vids and stuff to my friend and ya. we didnt slp the whole night.
this was why my body clock got screwed. haha.
ehh. fri i went out with yu chen to somerset! hehe. i passed him the album and we went to starbucks to drink the awesome green tea frap + he bought hot choc with caramel. also awesome stuff :)
after which. he sent me home and i cldnt slp :( cos i slept the whole day on fri. so i played heroes of might & magic.
yup. so on sat. ahh. im tired. tell u more abt sat soon. :) lets just say it was awesome :)

My Handsome Boyfriend :p

2011-04-24T22:06:00.004+08:00

heh. im gna dedicate this post to my handsome boyfriend!
cos my life is not all about what i do & about what happened to me, but about the most important person in my life too :)

Haii. i just saw something on his group blog post. suddenly no mood to talk about his awesomeness le.
haii. how? this sucks.

Whee! Facial :D

2011-04-24T00:06:00.002+08:00

whee! i just did a facial at home, wa. feels damn shoik la, haha then i gave my sister 1 yoghurt pack also (the one from korea) and she was like super happy la! haha
yea, ive decided to be nicer to my sis this hol. maybe cos i got touched when i was looking through my old stuff & saw that she wrote a card that says Jia yo for A levels. so now that its her turn to do A levels. and that i realize ive been quite bad to her the past few weeks. i decided not to scold her for taking my hairband & leaving them on the floor & instead gave her a yoghurt mask. haha
omg. my skin feels so good now! need 1 good rest & hopefully all the scars will clear. the pimple scars i got from all the mugging are slowly fading away. yay! :D

hee. thats about it for tonight. im tired :p almost fell aslp while the mask was on my face. haha. i wna blog more about what happened over the weekend! heh. shall blog tmr!

Super Super Fun Start of Summer!

2011-04-23T11:14:00.008+08:00

Heh i have so many things to blog about. its like soo many more things happened within a week compared to the entire school term.(not that school term was totally boring to the extent that nth happened at all & i studied all the way, which was actually the case for A levels) but yea. i mean so much happened within the past week since the end of term!

for a start, i did my first manicure! whoo. im using my manicured hands to type now. it looks awesome! like a deep sexy & shiny purple. totally like clubber nails.
and speaking of clubbing. i had 1 of the most fun clubbing experiences ever!!
there was also the sugarcoaters chalet where we had a lot a lot of fun plus a shopping trip with a few girl friends: Regine & Cynthia(but she left during dinner time) and and the most awesome of all was hanging out with Yu Chen, we went to see the Biennale. (he insists that its pronounced as Bee-Nah-Lei but i keep pronouncing it as Bi-ann-nal. my way sounds more correct right? but ya. i got convinced that his pronunciation was correct when i heard someone else say it. anw, so far, the only place we've been to is the National Musuem of Singapore. i love the architecture of the building! makes u feel so nice! u know wad i mean? heh. but ya i only started gg to see musuems since last yr? first time i went to the National Musuem of Singapore was with Michelle( maybe i went b4, but dont rmb)

yup yup. here's the basic timeline of events since exams ended

Sat(end of OOAD paper) i felt so shagged really, we were supposed to go for a fish spa but i think i was too tired or sth, we went to buy Reese peanut butter cups! hehe i also had the mood to buy alcoholic chocs! but in the end nvr buy. ya. then at night we just chilled at his place and watched big bang theory.
the next day, i think i was still super tired, so we pretty much stayed in & slacked the whole day.

Mon-Wed: Sugarcoaters chalet! Mon was the official end of Econs paper (so my other SIS friends are free le) ya, the chalet was at Aloha Loyang and almost everyone went there. at first all of us didnt know wad to do, in the end, we girls took a dip in the swimming pool then at night we had a bbq party which was pretty fun cos there was a lot of awesome food!! ohoh! and after that we played musical chairs, it was a bit childish but super fun! hahaha the only twist was that if we got out, we had to drink a shot of alcohol + mixer. ya haha.
at night we played board games & drinking games! and slept until quite late the next morn (like anrd 11 plus) so when we woke up, it was like time for lunch alr. and guess wad? we went to Changi Village to eat! i ate the famous nasi lemak! yum :d
yup so after that, we just went back and slacked (watched Year 1) which was a really stupid show. ugh. but some of the other guys went out to swim again.
at night, i went back home to change first cos i rly wasnt planning to stay over (tue night) cos the next day i had to go for an ocsp briefing at the Asian Civilisation musuem. a lot of things happened that night but i'll just say the main gist of it,

i went clubbing with almost everyone frm sugarcoaters. then halfway Eng Chang, Regine & Weekiat got pretty drunk so Gan Jun & Spencer sent them home first, and i thought gan jun was just going outside to wait while we partied inside so i agreed when he said he bring my purse out first. so left me, Esther, Chang Boon & Jaryll partying. we clubbed til the clubbed closed at 3am and then went out. so when i went out, i was looking for Gan Jun, cos i know he has my bag & that i wldnt be able to go home without it. but when i found out that he actually took it back to the chalet, i was stunned. and teared a little in front of my friends. ya. gosh. so i bo bian must go back to the chalet and grab my stuff lo. the only option is whether i wna take a cab back home after that or stay another night in the chalet. so i decided to stay the night there. lucky the hotel towel i used is still there, so can bathe. the only prob is tht i have to wear back the same clothes lo. sians. then i wanted to catch the earliest shuttle bus the next morn, but it leaves at 8.55, that night, esther & i cldnt slp, so we went down to eat more mamee.. lol. but ya, we agreed that we had to go to bed. i woke up early the next morning. luckily regine came into the room and made a bit of noise so i cld wake up. and gan jun was planning to leave at the same time too.

the next prob was that ah the shuttle bus left late, like arnd 9.15, and by then i think if i go home & change, i'll be super super late for my OCSP. so ya lo. i went to raffles place straight.. in the end i was the earliest lo. luckily, Olivia and a few others came early too, so i cld eat my Polar sausage roll. haha

Acm was okay, i felt pretty tired. good thing Gan Jun lent me his jacket. if not i no jacket lo.

thurs: SIS MEta meeting! haha but before that, i slept late at night and talked to some friends for advice. cos of the stupid thing where the guy lost interest in me lo. ya. the meeting was from 1-4. after that i had to wait for yu Chen to book out lo. but he ended super late so in the end i went to Boon lay to pick him up. Thank god i have Regine to accompany me during the train ride. cos she lives in the west also and also lucky lucky she was also gg to Boon Lay to meet her friends for supper. so ya lo i met Yu Chen & i wasnt angry la. hmm. i guess we settled some stuff? so i went to his place, bought dinner (MOs Burger! yum :d) and watched Hello Stranger (really nice & sweet movie) haha. and slept.

Fri: went out! heheh. went for an awesome lunch at the gina bairin in Orchard, then drank some lemon yoghurt frm happy lemon, super nice!! :D aft that we walked all the way from Orchard to National musuem to see the biennale which we missed that day. ya.

oh! another highlight of the day was getting free water + coins from the vending machine! yay! apparently, someone left their coins inside. lol. when we got the water, we were like super happy la! haha
so at night he sent me home and i met 2 cockroaches! the mother and the baby. they both scared the shit out of me la! Haiyo. stupid cockcroaches. luckily bro wasnt home, so i went to slp in his room :p

hehe. yup. thats all. whee! gg out again! :)

i knew it. he's losing interest

2011-04-20T23:10:00.002+08:00

Guess wad girls?
no matter how great the relationship may seen at the start, & no matter how much he says he loves you. & even if he says you're the one and all the other bullshit & makes u believe in true love, all guys lose interest eventually.
i knew it. i should have seen this coming.
well. this sucks. i'm gna be so lonely for the summer. (the time when i need someone the most)

why do guys do this? they chase you & do things for you and shower you with love, and when you start to love him even more, you try to do more, and he starts to say that he's losing interest. great. just great.

Frustrations of a girl

2011-04-20T21:55:00.002+08:00

I want to be born a male.
and no its not because im attracted to the female sex. i mean its true that i find a lot of girls pretty. but i dont feel attracted to them, instead, i feel a little jealous. it makes me wish i were prettier, hotter, skinnier & more attractive. rahh. its tough being a girl. i wanna be a guy.
that way, i dont have to care so much about looks, and even if im not hot or anything, all i'll have to do is go for ns for 2 years and i'll get a nice-looking bod. but still, girls dont care if a guy is hot or not, not obese can alr. u know? i mean, even fat guys have higher chances of getting a girl compared to fat girls (getting a guy)
yeah, you know what i mean

and its not just the looks.
its the other fun stuff too..
like hanging out with buddies, having bros before hos, that kind of stuff. its so fun i wanna be a part of it you know? like i wna hang out with guys (as a guy) to chill, watch soccer, talk cock and drink beer. or even do crazy things. like ask for girls' numbers as a dare, chat with girls and stuff.
or be the kind of nice guy that all girls like. and do sweet stuff for my gf, and yea, get a little lovin :p
but i think its true also leh. like guys seem to enjoy making out more than girls. right? i think so.. and they dont have to care about their virginity & stuff. i mean if a guy loses his virginity, it'll be like: whoo!! yea mans! but on the other hand, a girl has so much more to lose. you know? like many guys wouldnt like to get a gf who's been "tapped"

another thing about hanging out is that guys are really more bonded (i think its prob because of army too, idk) but ya. they usually hang out in grps & have so much fun playing tgt. whereas girls usually hang out it 2-3 or slightly more. and talk about relationship stuff. but honestly, for girls who are attached, i guess there's nth rly interesting to listen about? like nobody cares how much you love ur bf or what u do tgt that kind of stuff. the stuff of gossips is about the part before the couple gets tgt. you know? and secret admirers and stuff. i'm not saying that its boring being in a relationship, i love it, but ya, when it comes to hanging out with my girl friends, there's rly nth much to talk about.

rah. dont even let me begin about the menstrual woes of a girl.
she becomes bloated (fatter), more depressed (for no fking reason) and its just plain ugly. all the discomfort experienced during menstruation.

when it comes to romance even, i wld rather be the guy, cos i dont like the feeling of making the guy pay for everything. (makes me feel guilty & like i have to make up for that, thats why i somtimes insist on splitting the bill) of course its nice if he treats me to sth la. but i also like it when i hug the guy and protect him, you know? like pat the guys head & wrap my arms around his shoulder (instead of the waist) ya lo.

even in the working world people prefer guys too. i dunno. i dont think its just because of what people think about gender stereotypes. (on another note, im damn scared to see the score of my AW paper! :X scared)

ahh. im super jealous of guys. that's it for now. buhbye

Awesome Study Session

2011-04-07T00:27:00.003+08:00

Boo!
I just had one of the most awesome study session with my SIS friends (Spencer, Gan Jun & Wee Kiat) haha well, Wei Ming & Jaryll were there at first but they left early, Fabien was the earliest to leave.
the study session wasnt that productive, but i understood OOAD a bit(or maybe a lot) better. i was studying the textbook but the next step is to apply the concepts.
hai. but my OOAD really sucks. throughout the semester, i didnt really care about it, like the only time i dedicated to OOAD was the project and labtests. its not enough. hai. but i dont get why i cant code well. i feel stupid :(

but anyway, today's study session in the SR turned out more to be like a 'talk-cock' session. haha thats the guy term for what girls define as 'gossiping' hahaha.
the gender stereotypes. we can never escape it can we?
look at what AW has done to me.

but ya, it was quite fun la, we were showing each other pretty girls & all (its actually 1 of my favourite past-time =X i dunno whether other girls do that. haha)
eh. i dunno why eh. ever since i came to uni, i started hanging out with guys more. i think cos i havent really found a super close girl friend in IS, i have one la : Jocelyn, but we hardly meet also, cos shes got a new interest *cough cough*
haha
and we saw Wen Bin's CT video which was super funny! hahaha.
k. i guess the only bad thing about hanging out with guys is that you'll feel more self-conscious. even though those guys are ur good friends. i guess its because guys judge girls a lot more than do girls judge guys. its quite interesting la. haha. and its funny why guys are so obsessed with body-building & muscles when not a lot of girls care about how muscular a guy is(i think)?
yea. but maybe it works la, guys who work out are probably more attractive than those who dont. ah, i feel so fat now.
haha. need to lose weight. desperately. haha

eh. ya, thats all, cant wait for chalet! :)

Hell Week

2011-03-29T00:31:00.002+08:00

Hell Week part II is here again!
(actually, week 8 felt more hellish: OOAD interim submission + LTB execution + other stuff i cant rmb)
all i rmb was that at the start of the week i had a lot of energy, but as the days passed by, it felt like my life got sucked out of me. hmm and week 8 is supposed to be the break week.
Now, its week 13(2 more weeks before term ends!)
but i have 2 IS project submissions due on Sunday (yes. on the same day!) plus presenation the next day.
then this week i've got LTB presentation + my Academic Writing Research paper is due T.T

I've got so many things, i dunno why im still blogging. haha. i guess, when i grow up, i can always look back at the past and see where i am. like a few years back, i thought i was gna do well for my A levels and study Medicine. Ha! feels like fat hope now. i guess thats where i lost my faith in myself? hmm. the course im doing now is pretty hard. and the worst thing is, im also not very sure whether i'll really go on to work in the IT industry. feels scary. haha but i heard the pay is good, so yup. its for the bread and butter. not the prestige.

Hai. the thing is still bothering my mind.
oh! and i solved the emotional issues i had. haha it had to be. the fucking period.
it almost always happens. i will just feel super emo. gosh. if i get to choose my gender, i'll be a male. a super hot, handsome & cool one at that. ^^ with lots of girls secretly admiring me! hehehe.

This reminds me, even my friends at SMU IS, say that if i were a guy, i would be an Officer. lol. quite funny la. i think cos they see i sometimes quite ons :p

but i still hate worms tho. gosh. my ultimate enemy.
& gosh, the above statement sounds damn bimbo. lol

Feeling so emo

2011-03-25T17:25:00.002+08:00

I feel so emo now.
and just yesterday i was feeling so happy & high. rahh.
and despite my heavy school workload, i still wanted to see him,
but after ytd, i dunno what to feel anymore.
this sucks. it sucks to have feelings. i want to remove myself from these stupid feelings.
i need to focus!

Not so Perfect Anymore

2011-03-25T17:19:00.002+08:00

Hai. the relationship which i thought was perfect turned out to be not so perfect anymore.
i feel so troubled. :(
i need to rant, but i've got nobody else to rant about it to.
hai. i need to focus. but this thing keeps bugging my mind :(
why does something bad that happens to me always have to relate to smoking?

Narcissistic much?

2011-03-16T01:33:00.008+08:00

Eh, hehehe, since i got my hair & make up done by professionsals,
it wld be a waste to not take a few photos right? hehehe

oh! there're a few pictures where i tried out a different "hairstyle"
(i changed e parting :p)

Life sucks

2011-03-14T21:36:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, i feel like i don't want to bother anymore.
hmm. i rmb during one of my OCSP meetings, Matilda posed a qn: Can we ever be truly free?
it seems like a simple question, but actually, it's a very complex question.
we can never achieve true freedom because we'll always be bound by obligations, be it social, moral or legal.

Social obligation: If we're attached to one person, nobody will find it right to be attached to another person. That said, even if we're single, we're always looking out for our partner. its human, and we cant change that.

Legal obligation: i dont think i'll have to explain what this means. we can't ever go around slaughtering people/ commiting sins, it inflicts harm on the victims and may cause negative externalities as well.

moral obligation: i think this is a bit more complex, it relates to the person's beliefs, prescribed by their set of values.

but other than that, somehow, we're always bound by something, we follow the normal flow of life, we're born, we grow up, we find partners, get a job, have kids, grow old etc.
why do we do that? its like a life cycle, i guess, the only differences that can arise from this process is by the different choices we make.

i dunno man. i could be generalizing way too much here, and i wrote this because i needed to sort my mind out. i have way too many tests, homework, assignments and projects that will be due soon. hai. Uni life sure is tough. i guess the good thing about Uni is, i don't have to really mug mug mug like i did in JC. and to what end? in the end, i dont think i'll ever be going to use any knowledge about mitosis, benzenes and vectors. its stupid really. life is fucked up.

Slept my Sunday Away

2011-03-13T21:39:00.002+08:00

I just have to blog about this dream i had. which was the result of sleeping for close to 6hrs for the whole day. yup. i slept from about 2pm to 8pm!
its crazy, but the dream i had was so exciting, fun, real & breathtakingly beautiful.

i know its crazy, but i dreamt that i was stuck on some island, waiting to be rescued by this huge helicopter. i think i was holding on to some stick with a button (cld be a bomb. lol) as i was running towards the helicopter. then only 2 of us could quickly get on the helicopter (i dont know who the other 2 ppl are, but they're not anybody i know). so, as i went onboard the helicopter, i sat in the middle, beside the pilot.

the pilot then made a few loops (like i could feel myself going upside down, like it was a roller coaster ride, except, it was a lot scarier since it was pretty high above the ground.

as we got higher up into the air, the view became breathtakingly spectacular. and we spotted this extremely rare tree(the highest in the place, and was partially the reason why we went to that area in the first place. it was an enormous tree (it already looks quite big from far. the trunk was sticking out at an angle of 45degree(the trunks is probably as big & thick (or bigger & thicker) as those baobab trees. then the tree was covered by some snow frosting. i remember the colour electric blue as well. (probably is the lake there) but its so beautiful. i swear.

then the pilot drove us to see that spectacular tree and there was actually a hollow hole in the tree for us to park the helicopter inside. and i touched the surface of the tree. it was waxy.

after that, the pilot wanted to sit in the centre, but i didnt want to sit at the side, so luckily, there was a backseat inside the helicopter, so i went there together with the other person and we flew off again.

this time, we flew off to some secret research facility and the woman who greeted us asked me where i came from & the reason for my visit. i rmb telling her that im from Sg, & is from SMU SIS. but cant remember the reason of my visit.

from here onwards, i think my dream kinda deviated to a different story alr. but seriously. it all felt so real.

amazing huh? the power of the brain. hmm. maybe i cld use some of these ideas for my visual representation. cos i rmb before i went to slp, i kept asking myelf to think of what problem to write about.

My Valentine

2011-02-15T02:17:00.005+08:00

My boyfriend is super awesome la, whatever i do pales in comparison to what he does for me. and he wrote me a super cute note! :D too bad its personal & i'm not sharing! heh
he's all mine :p

Serious la, he came all the way to my hse to pick me & at the same time, gave me a box of home-made ice-cream! i was like :O cos i knew he was buying some stuff ytd like milk & chocolates. & i thought he was going to make some cake using his toaster oven or sth (he doesnt have the baking oven) so when i saw the ice-cream, i was pretty shocked, cos the way he kept it was so cute! he kept the ice-cream in a small container, then put it in another container half-filled with ice (sorta like insulating it) and it didnt melt at all! hee. he's damn sweet la,
but i didnt get to try it yet cos he's gna bring me on a secret date!

so i just followed him to where he's gna bring me.
mind you, he travelled a long way just for me (from Boon Lay to his hse, then to Plaza sing to get sushi, then finally to my hse carrying a lot of stuff! so sweet can! and he popped his own pop-corn too! waa. i bet all you girls out there want Yu Chen too! cos he's super tall, hot & handsome & i love him v. v. much! <3

Heh, actually we took a lot of other pics, but they're with him! :)
he's damn cute la i swear,
come this sat, i'm gna make it up to him with my V-Day surprise! :D

He looks super cute in this photo!!

I love you my hot sexy hunk! hehe

MY BOYFRIEND IS THE GREATEST PERSON EVER!!

2011-02-15T00:36:00.002+08:00

Lim Yu Chen,

Thank you so so much for giving me such a wonderful Valentine's Day this year. You're amazing you know that? I mean nobody would ever do whatever you just did for me.
You made Ice-cream! and took 5 hrs+ to make it somemore.

I love you! <3 and i'm declaring it on my blog for all to see! :)

Lotsa love,

Celine <3

P.S. I'll write a more personal love letter to you!